Tears fill my eyes immediately. Why would he cut? Haven't I been there enough for him? Am I doing something wrong? These questions and many more swirl around my head taking me to my own little place. I know how he's feeling, I constantly think about cutting too...but I just can't function.
His hand brushes over my cheek, bringing me back to reality. "Why are you crying?" He almost teases, does he think this is some kind of joke? If he's hurting I want to help him. He's my everything, my lover, my best friend, my idol.
"Why would you cut?" I ask but as soon as I open my mouth more questions are blurted out. "Am I not being there enough for you? I just don't understand." I scrunch my eyebrows together in confusion. His finger presses to my lips to quiet me down.
"You know you can turn to me, you know I won't tell anyone." My eyes fill with tears. "You know-" He cuts me off, his soft lips colliding with mine, his hands cupping my face, mine slightly touching his tanned, toned torso.
"I'll explain everything after a nice breakfast, yeah?"
"But I wanna know-" His lips brush against mine again, silencing me. My heart speeds up as he pulls away and I find myself wanting more, he knows what I do and don't like, and be uses it against me.
"After breakfast." He assures.
"No." I cross my legs and arms, I'm stubborn, that's one of my flaws. He raises his eyebrows at me, does he really think this isn't that big of a deal? He stands up and comes over to my side of the bed, I keep my back faced to him. He spins me around, messing up the sheets, so I face him. I look away but his hand grabs my chin so I will look at him. I raise my eyebrows at him expectantly.
"Baby." His nose brushes against my cheek in hopes of getting any kind of reaction but I don't give him any and I feel bad but I still don't show any affection. "I love you." He says in a cute voice in my ear and I have to force myself not to smile, and I succeed. He sighs and turns and walks into the bathroom. I sigh and relax, he runs and jumps on me while I protest and he flattens me out while I groan.
"Idiot." I roll my eyes, he hovers over me, careful not to rest too much of his weight on me.
"Love you too baby." He grins causing me to smile. "Go get ready." He kisses me before getting off me and walking to the bathroom. I walk over to the closet and grab some tribal print leggings and a white tank top as Harry walks out of the bathroom, I just get the tank top situated over my body. I let him put music on and walk into the bathroom to brush my teeth then walk back into the bedroom and sit on the bed with my uggs in front of me and one of his sweaters beside me. Questions still running around in my mind as I pull them on and then his sweater. I walk back into the bathroom and put eyeliner under my upper eyelashes and mascara, situating my hair before he comes up behind me and picks me up bridal style.
I wrap my arms around his neck and smile up at him as we walk downstairs, outside he lets me down and I get ahead of him, teasing and taunting him. A few paps getting pictures but I don't care, I'm having fun.
Harry picks up his speed slightly, bending over slightly then grabbing me and slinging me over his shoulder. My hair bounces around everytime he takes a step, I smile and pick up my head, clinging the his shirt, I giggle, Harry sets me down. I take his hand, he intertwines them and everything feels perfect. But then reality strikes and I have to talk to Harry about this. This is actually going to be my first serious conversation in years because I'm not a very serious person. But truth is, I'm scared. I'm scared of what he'll tell me. What if its worse then what I think it is, what if its going to go better then I expected? I guess only time can tell...
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A/N: yay! a chapter update, hope you liked it! Uhmmokay so 5 day weekend, whaaaaaat? What are you guys doing for thanksgiving? I'm going to my aunt and uncles and yeah, food 😍 but yay update.
So I guess lets get the book to 6K reads and 200 votes over the whole thing, yeah.
The reason I set it so high is because school is starting to become busy and shit and I need to focus more on my grades rather than One Direction, because I'm prepping for college, if I decide to go, so don't get mad at me.
If you want you guys should check out my new book I Wish, I just started it, and my other book Take Me Home and I promise it will get better.
There's a lot more yet to happen so be ready haha, bai love y'all
Goal: 6K reads, 200 votes
