Streets Talk

Chapter 18

Good thing the wound to the shoulder wasn't something serious. So the emergency room wrap me up and discharged me.
DJs girl Nicole invited me over for dinner, I accepted because I didn't know if they had cleaned my house up throughly so I decided to go to DJs house wit him.
When we pulled up, I seen Jaz car was here. HER and Nicole were good friends.
At first I was contemplating on if I should go in or not. Plus, I didn't know if she was ready to see me just yet. But whatever, If I don't go in I'll never know right?
Me and DJ stepped out of the car, my stomach was in knots because I honestly didn't know how I would approach her. I haven't seen her since the night of Monts death. It was like she disappeared off the face of the earth. DJ told me she went to Orlando with her parents though and he had a crew watching her every move to make sure she was cool so I was okay with that.
When I stepped into the house, I heard the TV on in the living room so I decided not to go in since she probably was in there. I went to the kitchen to grab a soda and there she was, closing the refrigerator door. She didn't even look up, she just started to walk towards me. That's when we ran into each other. She stood Frozen in her tracks and looked at me, tears automatically started to form in her eyes and she started to walk away.
"Jaz wait" I called out but She kept walking until she made it to the front door. I grabbed her arm before she made a chance to twist the door Knob.
"Jaz can we please talk" she turned around and I immediately put my head down. I couldn't bare to look at her with the hurt in her eyes.
"PLEASE stop crying, you know I can't stand to see you cry" I said to her with my head still down.
I decided to tug her arm and take her outside so we could talk alone.
"Where have you been?" I asked, ALREADY knowing the answer
"Orlando"
"DAMN Jaz, I know what I did was fucked up on so many levels. But please don't run away like that without letting anybody know something. It's too much going on and even though we're not together I still Care about you. I don't know what I would do if you got hurt because of me" I said as I paced the front porch.
"But I did get hurt because of you. NOT physically but emotionally and mentally hurt. Mike, YOU hurt me more than a bullet could have ever done. YOU constantly hurt me over and over again. NOT only that but you hid a child that could've possibly been yours away from me like it was the easiest thing in the world. Seeing you on tape hurt me enough to give me a heart attack and just call it quits. I thought you loved me and cared about me but I guess I was wrong."
"Man stop. PLEASE stop before you bet THINK that I don't love you because that's not the case and you know it's not. I know I fucked up badly, but that night Danielle called me over about the baby I was about to leave because I believed it was some bullshit. The bitch drugged me, I wasn't in my right state of mind. She took advantage of me Jaz. Man bae I love you, more than I love myself I know I fucked up way too many times. But I promise you I got it together. All this shit wit Mont and my dad got me realizing what I've had all along. Turns out the baby ain't even mine, it's Monts" I said as she stared at me in shock, she stood up from the steps
"Mike regardless of the baby is yours or not. YOU went over there willingly, while you left me at home. YOU know how I feel about Danielle. Now you go over her house because she calls you in the middle of the night? That shit hurt. If you wouldn't have went over there in the first place none of this shit wouldn't be happening. I could've easily gotten over the baby situation, but you going over there takes the cake. I don't know if I could ever be with you again." She said as her voice trailed off.
"I know I hurt you, I know I did. But just don't give up on us like that. I know it's gone take some time, I don't even care if we don't be together, I hope it doesn't come to that. But I just hope you could forgive me."
"Im sorry Mike I can't do this" she said as she walked away to get in her car. I was distraught.