Streets Talk

Epilogue

Jaz

Day 269

I pulled my shirt tighter as the February air hit me like a freight train. It was freezing Cold out here and they had us sitting outside like it was a hot sunny day. I hated the time of day were they made us sit outside for a hour before they served us dinner. It was freezing but yet they kicked us out of the warm building into the cold air. I shivered as I sat on the bleachers that was positioned outside against the gate. THIS all women's facility was way more than I expected it to be. There were dikes, lesbians, bisexuals all of the about tryna get me on the daily, but I pushed them away. The 9 month old belly that sat in front of me didn't push them away either and that's what disgusted me
Yes, Im 9 months pregnant today, and serving my time, well Mikes time in a correctional facility. THIS is the last place I'd imagine being pregnant, but I've made the best of it. MY nurses were nice to me and they made sure I was good on my health. THIS pregnancy is scary for me because not I'm at the end, my baby will be taken from me and sent to mike for the remainder of my sentence. That'll be a huge surprise when he receives a baby.
Surprise? Yes it will be, I've been pregnant 9 whole months and haven't told Mike. I wanted to, I really did, but I cut all ties with every one from the outside. I've been holding on to a letter for the last 5 months because I didn't want to know what was happening out there where I couldn't be.
After I have my baby I'm sure he'll be upset, but once he Hold he or she that should make up for everything.
I sat here cradling my baby while sitting next to my new cell mate, Heather. She was an average size brown skinned girl with a natural curly Afro. She got here about a week ago, and we've been kicking it ever since. She's a cool girl, she's in her for trying to kill her father, he tried to raper her.
"YOU play Jaz?" She asked from beside me as she puffed on a cigarette. I nodded my head as I continued to look around the field. Some women played kickball, some walked, others smoked, and then there was me. I just sat there tryna count down the time it was for us to go back inside. The constant kicks I received from my baby wasn't doing me no good either, I rubbed my belly tryna soothe my little boy or girl.
"Yes I'm fine. The baby is just kicking" I smiled weakly as I begin to shiver as the cold air began to blow. She nodded as she continued to smoke her cigarette, I frowned and turned my head away because I've grown to hate the smell of cigarettes, smoking of any sort for that matter.
The time soon came for us to go back inside. I got up from the bench and wobbled my way towards the door. MY orange jumpsuit was tight on my body due to my huge belly, so I couldn't walk fast or it'll split in half. We got in line, then we were escorted into the lunch room.
All the food they served was nasty, even the shit on commissary. But I had to eat for the sake of my baby. After I grabbed my tray of food I went and sat down in front of the TV as heather joined me.
"Your due today huh" Heather asked as she chewed the stale toast that had given us. I signed as I stared into outer space, is what is seems like, my baby was the only thing that bring me joy some days. Realizing it was my due day, it brung tears in my eyes. I was so pressed on how many days I've been in this place, I lost track of what today actually was. THIS place holds nothing but sadness, but my baby girl or boy brings joy to my heart.
"Tomorrow was the day they'll be ensuing me, I can't wait" I said anxiously to heather as tears fell from my eyes and I ran my fingers through my hair
My hair had grew out since I been in here and it was now down to my behind. It was too much to deal with sometime, but I dealt with it. I washed it as much as I could but it was hard to manage without a perm.
I wiped my tears away and started eating at this watery spaghetti they had given us. Nothing could take my joy away from me right now. I'll be somebody's mommy in a day.
After I was done eating, I went upstairs to take a shower and get ready for bed.
I stripped out of the ugly, dirty orange jumpsuit and left it on the floor. I pulled my bra over my shoulders and pulled my panties down and stepped out of them as I made my way into the shower. I got directly under the faucet and let the warm water cleanse my body. I washed my hair, preparing for the birth tomorrow. A smile came on my face as I thought of being somebody's mom. Happiness filled me, I was so happy that I didn't hear the door to the girls shower room open and close. MY child was the only thing on my mind, but those thoughts were immediately erased once I felt someone's lips on the back of my neck, I turned quickly on my heels and looked at who was behind me.
"YOU THINK you can just walk around here with that big ass and tits bouncing and just tease me huh? I don't give a fuck about that baby being in you, word in the streets pregnant women got the best pussy, guess I'll be the first to test the theory" the white chubby security guard said to me and he reached to unbuckle his belt buckle.
Tears sprung from my eyes as I backed away and tried to cover my body. He pushed my forcefully against the wall as I screamed for help. He pinned me again the shower wall and pulled his pants down, with one hand over my mouth. By now, tears were steaming down my face as I tried to push him off of me, but there was no use. He was 3 times my body weight so fighting him was pointless.
It'll go quicker if you don't fight it" he whispered in my ear as I continues to cry and scream, while keeping my legs closed. Just as he tried to separate my legs and shove hisself into me, I notice heather standing behind him, she hit him with a piece of wood she'd found. He fell off my and she kept hitting him as I fell to the ground crying and hold my belly. THIS couldn't be happening to me, all I wanted to do was take a shower and I couldn't do that alone?
"YOU OKAY Jaz?" Heather asked as she grabbed the security guard by his shirt. She stopped and looked over at me with a concerned expression. It has only been a week, but she was something I could trust and actually turn to. As the tears fell down my face I nodded my head.
"Thanks heather, I just wanna be alone right now" I told her as she nodded and dragged the guard out of the bathroom by his shirt. She locked the door behind her so no one else could enter while I was in here. So many bad memories were being made here, I just wanted to remember all the good ones. So I just sat there it's the water running all over me, reminiscing for a while. That's all I needed was a little time
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After I was done, I pulled myself off the floor and scrubbed myself all over again. I washed the dried up tears off my face. I wanted a fresh start, hopefully after I have my angel that's what I'll be given.
After getting out of the shower, I stood in the mirror and looked at my hair, I was tired of having this shot covering my face, so I began to cut, it was time for something new. All of this SHIT I've been thru in the past, change was a must.
I walked back To my cell and pulled the letter out that's been under my bed for the past 5 months, I wondered what's been happening in the wild streets of Miami, things have changed, I just know it has. I guess now is the time to find out what's been going on while I'm away.
I rubbed my belly as I tore open the envelope, it was a letter from Nicole, I took a deep breath in before reading.
Dear Best Friend,
Hey Jaz, how are you? I hope your in there good, I love you and I miss you. We all do, especially Mike of course. A lot of things have changed since you've been gone but our love for you hasn't. We're counting down the days til you return. YOU know Michelle is now staying with Mikes mom and dad, since nobody seems to find Mont. Danielle's ass got on drugs bad after the disappearance of Mont, so she checked herself into a rehab and your parent inlaws got custody. I love you Jaz, plz write back. Mike has changed a lot, he really has. He even stopped smoking. I can't wait to see you BFF, it's been too long. Just keep faith in God things will be alright. I love you Jaz, remember that because it'll never change. Love don't change!
Sincerely,
Nikki Babyyyy (Nicole)

A huge grin was over my face as i place the letter on my chest. I was happy Mike was bettering himself while I was gone. I was eager to get home now, which I hated the most. I took a deep breath as o frowned and looked down at my belly. A wave came across me and a wet spot appeared on the bottom bunk I occupied.
I let out a loud scream as pain shot thru my back to my stomach, it was time, I was Bouta have my angel, happiness came across me as o sat and cradled my stomach as sweat formed onto my forehead. Before I knew it. I was transferred to the hospital ward of the jail. THIS was the moment I've been waiting on. I wanted Mike to be here, but he'd receive his surprise soon enough. I already know he might be angry with me, but it won't stick. He loves me too much, and he'll love his seed even more than that. Good thoughts of the future clouded my brain as I was prepped to have my baby. I closed my eyes and said a quick prayer up to God as I give birth to a Healthy angel..
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