Streets Talk

Chapter 20

I started getting sleepy for Jaz to get home so I decided to take my shoes off and lay back on the bed.
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3 hours later she decided to come home, I heard her turning the lock opening the door. She came into the room, all on the phone talkin bout some nigga I guess she went on a date with. I sat up and started staring at her until she realized I was there.
"Mike what are you doing here?" She asked sitting her purse down on her dresser. "And What happened to your shoulder?" She had concern and worry in her voice. But she tried to hide it when there was no reason to.
"FUCK all dat Jaz, what's this I hear about you going out wit niggas now? That's how we doing it"
All she did was stare at me as I Fire question after question. She stared at my gauze noticing it started to turn red from the blood coming thru.
"Michael what happened to you?" She asked getting serious, I know she was serious when she called me my actual name.
I ignored her though. "That ain't important right now. Im tryna see why you going out wit niggas like it cool now. YOU moved on that quick huh!" I asked and she must've took offense to that because she arched an eyebrow at me.
"EXCUSE me?" She said in shock. "To answer ur fuckin question , no im not. Im not some hoe Mike DAMN. I went out to lunch with my brother and his friend decided to join. Don't make me seem like I'm so cheap ass hoe off the streets or something" she crossed her arms over her chest.
I didn't wanna go further into the conversation because that's not why I was here. "Im just saying, is be very disappointed if you gave up on us when I told you I was getting it together" I said and I was serious. Im cool on these no good ass bitches. I just want someone that's here for me and me only. And that was Jaz. "But can you do me a favor" I asked hoping she was gonna say yes.
"Depends"
"YOU got a first aid kit"
"Yeah under the bathroom sink"
"Aight cool, YOU THINK you could re wrap my shit up for me" I asked locking my lips. I knew what I was doing though.
She stared for a minute before she snapped out of it and went to get it.
"Come here" she yelled from the bathroom. When I got in there I hopped on the counter and waited on her to start. She signed and walked slowly in between my legs to get closer to the wound. She began unwrapping the old gauze. She tossed it in the trash and grabbed the alcohol.
She dapped some tissue with a little alcohol on it.
She looked into my eyes while I looked in hers and she began wiping it harder, not to hurt me but to get all the dried up blood off I guess. "Aww damn man" I yelled out grabbing her wrists. That shit gutted like a muthafucka.
"STOP looking at me like that" she said
"Why" I shot back
"BECAUSE" she said, and then trailed off
"BECAUSE what?" I pressed the issue
"Just don't OKAY"
"Yeah aight" I said and averted my gaze away from her.
She finished cleaning the wound.
"I appreciate that Jaz" I told her "your always there holding me down when you not obligated and I owe you for that." I said jumping for the counter as she washed her hands on the sink.
"DONT worry about it" she said drying her hands.
She began to walk out the bathroom but I grabbed her by her arm stopping her.
"I love you" I said as she turned back and looked at me.
"YOU sure" she asked like I was lying.
That was crazy because I've never lied to her. Maybe hiding and avoiding things but I've never lied to her.
"Positive"
"THATS nice Mike"
I frowned and grabbed her arms a little tighter but not enough to hurt her. "SO you ain't gone tell me you love me back?"
"Why say something you don't deserve to hear" she said smartly
"YOU right, just do it"
"No damn, YOU making this break up hard for me. I don't know what I wanna do at this point. The baby thing isn't the issue but you went over her house still. I get that you were drugged but yawl still fucked. The same female that wanted us to be apart from the beginning. She wanted you so bad to break us up and she succeeded. So now she can have you" she snatched her arm away from me and walked out the bathroom.
"Chill, YOU know ion want that bitch. The only female I want is you. Im tryna my best but damn what more do I gotta do" I signed and turned her around to face me. I put my hands around her slim waist and pushed her against the wall. "Tell me what I gotta do to get you back" I pleaded
She looked away from me biting her bottoms lip
Her eyes started to water and she turned back to me. "YOU really wanna know" she asked and I nodded to confirm
"Just leave me alone" she sat just about a whisper and a stray tear cam down her cheek. I was angry and hurt all in one.
I didn't say anything else I just walked away and slammed the door shut.
            I Fucked up and lost a good one. But I pray to GOD that I can get her back.