Trust

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Bea's body was heating up. She kept seeing Brayden Holts face inside her head, she flipped the table, punched the wall and threw glass everywhere.
"Bea hey calm down babe talk to me" Allie tried walking towards Bea when Bea saw she stepped back
"Stay away from me" Bea glaring at the crew
"Bea hunny what's wrong?" Maxine tried calming her down. Allie walked up to her and went to grab her when she walked out
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"Ms Westfall can i talk to you" Bridget knew Bea wasn't one for talking but she said yes instantly.
"What's up?" Bea sighed and fidgeted with her hands
"I have had depression for years now, but it has been playing up so much lately. It turns me angry and upset. I push the people i love away to protect them. I keep seeing Brayden in my head" Bridget was surprised that Bea Smith is talking to her but she liked it. Franky always asked about her.
"Well Bea, you can try methods like talking? Or if you have aggression maybe use the gym" Bea was drifting away
"Bea..where are you going?"
"Allie shouldn't be in my mess.. I don't want to hurt her. She has done so much for me, and i keep hurting her" Bea started to tear up when Ms Westfall placed her hand on Beas knee.
"I know it may seem hard right now Bea, but trust me it will get easier. You have the support of the women, me and Allie" Bea nodded she stood up and left the office
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Allie had been worried sick. She hasn't seen Bea since her meltdown.
"Ms Westfall?" Allie shouted running over to her
"Have you seen Bea anywhere?" She nodded
"Yeah we just had a session" She didn't know what to think
"Bea spoke to you?" She nodded again and walked away.
Allie found Bea talking to Boomer at the gym
"Hey you okay?" Allie pulled Bea into a hug
"Uh..yeah sorry" She could see Bea hurting
"Do you wanna talk about anything?" Bea instantly shook her head. Allie didn't tell her about what Ms Westfall told her. She wanted Bea to tell her.
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They were cuddled up on the sofa in the unit, Bea playing with Allies hands when she told her
"Allie.. I spoke to Ms Westfall today" Allie turned Bea around so they were face to face
"Oh yeah? How did it go?" Allie stared into them dark brown eyes
"I don't know to be honest..i'd talk to you but it was mainly about you.. Like Debbie to but mainly you" Allie was searching her eyes looking for a sign
"Should i be worried?"
Bea shrugged
"I just have insecurities but then again who doesn't?" Allie nudged Bea playfully
"Would you ah.." Allie sensed Bea nervous and tensing up, she stroked her face
"Will you come to a session with me? Please?" Allie didn't answer straight away
"Sorry you don't have to i just thought" Allie cut Bea off
"I'd love to Bea, when?" Bea had a massive smile on her face, Allie loved it
"Uh is tomorrow okay?" Allie nodded kissing her lovingly
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The next day came Allie and Bea were sitting in the office when Bridget walked in
"Hello ladies how are we today?"
"Nervous" Bea answered
"Excited" Allie said grabbing Beas hand
"A bit of mixed emotions but thats okay, lets get started shall we?" Both girls looked at each other and nodded
"Okay Allie lets start with you, what made you fall for Bea?" Allie took a deep breath, she felt Bea's gaze landing on her
"Bea inspired me on the outside, what she did.. Standing up for women, i had never seen anything like it. Then i came in here and seen her.. I saw her differently then how she saw herself" Bea stroked Allies hand
"I saw through the whole top dog act you know.. I knew who Bea was and how kind and loving she really was. When we spent more time together
I was over the moon.. I fall more in love with her everyday" A tear streamed down Beas face as Allie wiped it
"She is the most beautiful girl i have ever met, she also saw me for who i am not who i was and i love her so much" Allie smiled watching Bea
"Thank you Allie.. Bea?"
"Ahh..how do i top that?" They both laughed
"When i first saw Allie, my jaw literally dropped. She was gorgeous and still is. Allie has the biggest heart, her history means nothing, shes not that person anymore. I wish she didn't have to go through all that. I'm sorry you did" Bea kissed Allies cheek and continued
"Allie accepted me for who i was, she helped me when no one else ever gave a damn about me" Tears started falling
"After Debbie i didn't have a reason to live, i didn't need to open my eyes anymore to live in hell, then i met her. She knows all my dark secrets and helps me through everyone.. I guess i don't think i deserve her.. Thats why i push her away sometimes like she deserves someone better. But i love her.. More than anything" Allie and Beas foreheads connected, stroking each others cheeks
"Alright ladies i think that went well but times up, how about another session next week?" Both girls nodded
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They went straight to their room and sat down
"I'm so proud of you Bea, you done great"
"I'm proud of you too, thanks for coming with me" Allie kissed Bea with all she had.
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Allie went to the shower and Bea followed behind, before they could get undressed they heard someone walk in. It was Joan and another girl
"Queen Bea and her girl how sweet" Bea pulled Allie behind her, the girl went up throwing Bea onto the ground and grabbing Allie
"leave her alone" Bea shouted getting up
"Ill make you a deal Bea.. Let me hurt you and she can run free"
"Bea no don't please no"
"Okay okay let her go" The girl holding Allie pulled a screwdriver out going to stab Allie Bea jumped in front getting her in the stomach. Allie screamed, going to knock the girl away, Joan grabbed her and slammed her head against the wall, looking in the distance hazy, Allie could see the women stabbing Bea over and over. Running over Allie pressed the panic button, the girls ran out and Allie ran over to Bea
"Bea baby Bea.. Stay awake.. You hear me stay awake.." Allie was crying hysterically
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Bea was taken to hospital in critical condition. Allie wasn't allowed to go. She told everyone what happened. They gave Allie a hug
"She jumped in front of it.. Literally so it wouldn't hit me..it's my fault" Liz grabbed Allie
"Hey love no..you know what Bea is like, she will protect anything and anyone she loves"
"I'm going to fucking kill Joan"
Maxine shook her head
"Leave that to me and Boomer"
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It had been two weeks Bea woke up a week before. Battered and Bruised she was transferred to Wentworth's medical cell. Allie was so scared to see Bea. She didn't know what to do.
The time came she walked into medical .
Looking at the bed she saw the redhead curled up, she looked peaceful while she was sleeping. Allie went over and held her hand. Tears dripping onto Beas hand
"A...allie..don't..cry" Bea turned her head to see the gorgeous blonde. Her eyes red from crying
"Bea why the fuck would you do that? You nearly died i can't lose you i can't" Allie squeezed her hand