A/n This may be triggering.
Calum's pov
I sat against a wall in the bathroom. Blood trickled down my wrists, razor in hand. I've been depressed for about a year and self-harming for 6 months. The boys have no idea about any of this. I'm not planning on telling them anytime soon. I don't deserve their time.
I get up and hold on to the sink, feeling a bit dizzy. Once the dizziness is gone, i put my razor back in the cupboard. I wash off my wrists and banged them up, pulling my long sleeve shirt back down. I heard a knock on the door, making me jump.
"Calum, hurry up. I nodded a shower. "Michael yelled.
"Ok, one second "i yelled back.
I grabbed a white towel and tried to clean up the small pile of blood. I, then though the towel in the washing basket and opened the bathroom door. Michael was waiting outside.
"Finally "he mumbled, walking into the bathroom and closed the door.
I walked into my room and flopped on to my bed
Michael's pov
I walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind me. I heard Calum walk away. I know somethings wrong with him, i just don't know what. He's been acting strange and i want to know why.
As i, started the shower, i noticed that there was no body wash. I opened the cupboard and tried to find some. I found some body wash, but i also find a razor. And it had fresh blood on it. I quickly turned off the shower and put down the bottle i was holding.
I know who this belongs to, Calum. It explains so much, the long shirts and bracelets, why he's been so quiet. He's cutting. I looked around the bathroom, trying to find anything else. I opened the washing basket and pulled out the white towel on top of the pile. It had blood on it.
I unlocked the bathroom door and walked downstairs into the lounge room, making sure I didn't run into Calum on the way. I know he'll kill me for telling the boys, but if he's hurting himself, they need to know. Ashton and Luke were watching TV when i walked in.
Luke was the first to notice me holding a bloody towel and razor. His eyes widened and he got up, walking over to me. Considering, that i have a past of self-harm, i wouldn't be surprised if he thought I was cutting again.
"Mike, why are you holding those? "He asked.
Ashton turned to us and his eyes also widened.
"Holy shit "Ash said, rushing over.
"Guys, they aren't mine "i said.
"Who's are they then? "Luke asked.
"Calum's. Think about it. He's been wearing long sleeve shirts and bracelets. "I said.
They looked at each other, then back at me.
"Wrists "Ash said.
I put out my arms, knowing that he wanted to see if i was cutting or not. He rolled up my sleeves, finding nothing. Luke and Ashton's eyes widened again.
"Fuck "Luke said.
"We should go talk to Calum "Ashton said.
"I'll go, he won't say anything if it's all of us. I'll call you guys up soon "i said. They nodded.
I walked upstairs into Calum's room. He was laying in bed, on his phone. I cleared my throat, getting his attention. His eyes widened, as he saw what was in my hands. I sat on his bed, as Calum sat up. He looked scared.
"Cal, we need to talk "i said. Calum nodded.
"Are these your? "I asked, not knowing how else to ask.
Calum froze, tears in his eyes. He knows that I caught him. I put my towel and razor on the ground, and moved closer to Calum.
"It's ok, I'm not mad. I just want to know. We can get though this together. "I said softly, moving hair out of his face.
"They're mine "Calum whispered, looking down.
I could see tears running down his face. I pulled him into my lap and hugged him. I know he isn't going to like but i have to do it.
"LUKE, ASHTON "i yelled out.
"No, Mikey please "Calum pleaded, hiding his face in my chest and cried more.
"It's ok "i reassured him, rubbing his back.
Ashton and Luke walked in the room. Once they saw the state of Calum, tears built in their eyes. They sat on the bed next to me and Cal. Luke mouthed "he does, doesn't he" to me and I nodded my head, as a tear feel down my cheek.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm such a fucking idiot "Calum cried.
"You aren't a idiot. You're going through a bad time. It's ok "Ashton said.
"We understand "i said.
"And we're going to get though it together "Luke added.
