This Unknown Atmosphere

You Don't Know Me

We met when we were young

We were idiots

We were immature

We still haven't fully matured yet

But we're getting there

Let me get straight to one of the points

We dated

For I don't know how long

We broke up

So I lost you

But it's as if you're a storm

That one horrible storm that happened on my birthday

I'll never forget it

Just like I'll never forget you

I got most of my classes with you in my first year of middle school

We hated each other

Well, that's what I thought

Until I realized you still had feelings for me

And I had feelings for you

But we didn't know that about each other until a year later

When only you moved on

And I didn't

I told you a few things when we were together

We were like what, ten?

Probably, but we knew what love was

At least I think

But you don't know me that well anymore

Two years later, after sixth grade

You have a few classes with me again

Of course I'm happy

But I'm afraid

All I do in front of you is embarrass myself

I try so hard to pull everything off

All my mistakes I make in front of you

But I can't

Because mistakes are mistakes

We can't forget them

Because they'll always be in the past

Hopefully not taunting us everyday of our lives

I recently told myself I would no longer talk to you

Today I walked next to you in the hall way

I was silent, you glanced over at me

You asked if I was okay and I nodded

For a moment you were right

Because in that moment you said that I wasn't okay

But I finally spoke and said I was fine

I'm surprised you actually believed me

I wasn't "fine" at the moment

But I didn't want you to worry

Wait, like hell you'll worry about me

Yes you're a kind person

But you certainly wouldn't worry about a mistake itself would you?

You don't know me

And I don't know you

You don't know the secrets I hide

You don't know my family life

And you certainly don't know how I act outside of that place we call school

And you don't know my feelings towards you

Are the positive?

Or are they negative?

Well, only my world in my mind will know

I won't let anyone enter my void-like world

Besides myself