This Unknown Atmosphere

Oh Well

When I'm laying down

Trying to sleep

Sometimes I get consumed by the darkness I love and hate

I feel as if I can actually feel the darkness corrupting and consuming my mind

As if I can feel it cover every inch

It hurts

But it's worth it

Cause then I'll feel no emotion

It's as if my brains wants me to be a horrible person

It wants me to think that

It's telling me I'm not a good person

I'm not good enough because I don't reach today's standards

Correction, societies standards

It's telling me "you might as well kill yourself"

Because that's what all the others did

And by others

I mean the kids who got taken under too young

The kids who let the darkness take away their light

The kids who knew they weren't good enough

I'm one of those kids

But I'm not dead

Because there's somehow

Still some light left

But it's barely there

Oh well,

Like anyone cares anyway

Because I am just,

Well,

I don't know what I am

I'm human I guess

And I certainly don't wanna be on earth

But that's okay

Because I know everyone sometimes wants to die

Everyone dies

Get over it.