Voice of The Past (Completed)

3.

When I get home my mother is waiting at the door.

- Where were you? You cant do this to us! Especially after you never take your medication. Do you know what could happen to you? Do you? Of course not!- Then she looks down and notices the scrape.

-Dear god! What the heck is that? Honey, what happened? How did you get that?– God, she always overreacts.

- I tripped. – I go into my room and slam the door behind me then I lock it. It has a key so why not use it? My mom is banging on the door.

- Young lady open this door right away! Amanda! You better open this door right now! – She keeps doing that for a while. Wow today she's really mad. I might get a slap later... 

What a weird blond pig... I get my computer and my headphones. Then I put on a random heavy metal playlist I find on Youtube. I wonder when He will come back. I look out my window. I see the cars and the people going by. It's strange. I keep staring out the window until I fall asleep on my chair.

I wake up in the middle of the night. I go to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I'm so thirsty. When I turn on the light my eyes sting a little. I look around. Something seems different. Probably nothing. I get my glass of water and drink it quickly. Oh I know whats different. Dad isn't here. He usually comes home really late. I hate him even more than I hate my mother. He always makes her cry. And that's my job. But it makes me so... angry. 

Suddenly for no reason I throw the glass on the ground and it shatters into a million pieces. I start to scream as loud as I can. Why am I doing this? I'm just making my mother worry more. I'm just making her hate me more. And I don't want her to hate me even though I hate her. But I cant stop screaming. I just cant. I hate my life. I hate my life. Why is this happening? Why wont I shut up. I try to move but i'm frozen. Then my mother quickly runs to me.

- Honey! Whats wrong? What is it? Are you alright? – I cant believe this. Im such an idiot. Why am I such an idiot? I make everyone worry. I put my hand over my mouth and try to stop myself from screaming anymore. Why am I doing this? Everything hurts. My head. My body. My hands. My legs. My bones. Broken. All of them broken.

- Honey, please... I don't want you to be this way. – Suddenly I stop. Did my mother just tell me she doesn't like me the way I am? Well I guess I knew it. I stare at the ground for a bit and then I pass right by my mother and go to my room like nothing happened. I lay down on the bed and within a second i'm asleep. 

I had weird dreams but I don't remember them.

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Sorry for the short chapter! I might post another one now to make up for it :P