Voice of The Past (Completed)

9.

Apparently I had passed out and Jason brought me home... I am now in a crazy house or mental hospital, whatever you wanna call it. It fucking sucks. All this white is so lonely it doesn't help that the only human voices I hear are screams from other patients. And I have too much time alone with He... I think I might actually go crazy. 

Stop moping around. We need to think more about what you'll do after we get out of here. No. Amanda I understand you're upset with me but you cannot ignore me. No. Amanda! Listen to me. I just want to help you. Stop it. Please just stop. Amanda that boy could make me disappear... forever... That shook me a little bit but It also made me a bit happier... Yay... Don't "Yay" me... Do you really want me to disappear? I ... You've been here 3 days and its not only taking a toll on your physical but also mental health. I've been with you for 6 years are you alright with me leaving so suddenly? Poof. And then everything goes silent. Amanda, you need me. I don't. You do.

- I don't!!!- I got up and started banging on the door.

-Somebody help! Please! – Somebody... But no one ever came... I sat down on the floor against the door. 

I hate this stupid hospital dress thing... I feel naked in it. I wish I had my sweatshirt. I shiver a bit. Amanda I wont stop pestering you until you answer me honestly. Let me sleep on it. I walk over to the depressing little bed in the corner and lay down covering myself with the weird smelling covers.

I had a dream. In my dream I was wearing a ridiculously big ball gown and I was in a giant ball room. I was looking around for something and suddenly there was a shadow that walked over to me and offered me a dance. I decided it couldn't hurt. So we danced for hours and hours it was strange yet wonderful. But we danced so much that I got tired and it wouldn't let me go. Then a prince came in and swept me off my feet. He was so handsome, although i cant remember what he looked like... And then we danced but it was even better than before and we stopped for a while and I didn't see him for the rest of the night.

 Most cliche dream ever... Damn. But it didn't help me decide what to do. The truth is I don't want to let go... But I also cant stay with He forever. Its so confusing... It wont be long before He realizes that i'm awake. I better decide fast. Maybe ill wing it. Say the first thing that comes to my mind. That's not such a good idea. Argh! What am I going to do!? I just want my life to be easy, good and full of me making people miserable. That's all. But I guess that's not all... I also want ... Hm, whats the word? Excitement. Yes. And... Surprises, and spontaneous trips to beautiful places, funny, jerky and stupid boys that follow me around and make me feel like i'm part of something big... I guess I must've smiled while thinking that because I could feel He stirring. Oh, god. Amanda, your finally awake. Have you made your choice yet? Straight to the point... Couldn't even say good morning? Sigh. Have you? Well... Um. Amanda! Please take this seriously. Ugh! Stop calling me by my name you know I hate it. Then what should I call you? I don't know... Oh forget it for now. Yes I have made my choice! Alright then, lets hear it. I... Well... So you haven't made your choice then? Well I could make it for you. 

At the time something must have been really wrong with me because I actually thought it was a pretty good idea.

 Ok, then. You decide.

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Thank you for reading! Sorry for the short chapter i don't have time for anything more today.

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