Voice of The Past (Completed)

14.

-Oh my god! How long is this going to go on? They've been going at it forever!- It was already dark and I bet everyone in the neighborhood could hear the moans and groans.

-This is pretty ridiculous... I hope no one gets pregnant after this.- hoodie boy says in such a serious voice I cant help but laugh a little bit...

-Oh by the way what day is it today?-

-Huh? Im pretty sure its Saturday.- Hoodie boy looks at me.

I bury my face in the sleeping bag again. And whisper to myself – I really have changed since then...-

-What did you say?- Asks Oliver.

-Nothing-

I stand up and walk downstairs quicly knocking on their door and then barging in. Ponytail girl screams and Dorian looks really surprised then angry. The view almost makes me throw up though. Ponytail girl on top of Dorian... and... that's enough details.

-Enough sexy time! Get up! Get dressed! And get fucking over it you little whore!- They both look at me with red faces and ponytail girl quickly stand up and gets a pillow to hide her naked body... although it doesn't really work.

 I try not to look at Dorian but I stay in the doorway to make sure they get dressed. When they're done I look down at the floor and almost gag.

-You better clean that up.- I turn around and see hoodie boy coming down the stairs.

 Ponytail girl doesn't even look at him she just goes to get something to clean up the... mess. Oliver looks down at the floor.

-Gross.- He makes a weird face and then grabs me by the hand and drags me outside.

-Hey! Let me go! If we don't keep an eye on them they might start again!- But he's stronger than me and when we're outside he sits on the grass and pulls me down on him.- What are you doing?- I try to push him away but he doesn't let me go.

 He just lays there. After a while I stop fighting him and decide it will be easier to just lay on him for a bit and then he'll let me go. So I put my head on his chest and relax.

-I don't know why I did that... I just got the urge. Sorry.- But he doesn't let me go.

 He's still holding my arm. I look towards the street. No one's passing by. A few minutes go by then I hear a familiar voice in the distance. I realize almost immediately who it is. I frantically try to get up but Oliver doesn't let me.

-What? What is it?- He asks and then stares at me.

-Let me go. Now! Let me fucking go!- Finally his grip loosens and I run into the house as fast as possible.

 I carefully look out of one of the window. Jason... he's walking by. He looks into the yard of the house and sees Oliver. For a moment they make eye contact then Jason says:

-Hey! Do you know anyone named Dorian?- Oliver stares at him.

-Maybe I do.- I can see Jason getting a bit irritated... why is he here?

-What about Amanda? Do you know her? – His tone is a bit more aggressive.

-Maybe I do maybe I don't. – Oliver starts to get up slowly.

 I think he realized why I ran into the house so frantically. But Jason doesn't give up. He jumps over the fence and at that moment Oliver runs into the house. Slamming the door behind him and locking it. I walk over to him and look at the old, almost broken door and then back up at Oliver. He has a look on his face that basically says "We are fucked." I can hear Jason yelling from the other side of the door and slamming himself into it... I feel a bit scared and a bit happy at the same time. Amanda! You cant let him find you no matter what! You have to run! Fast! But there's no where to go.

 I start to remember what Jason showed me and realize how much I missed him. So I go and unlock the door. Open it and Jason stops himself right before he was going to slam into me. He looks so surprised and then relieved. What are you doing? We had an agreement! Stop it! Jason walks up to me and puts his arms around me but I push him away.

-You stupid blond pig. How did you know I was here?- He half smiles.

-Well... I asked around the school... and the last time anyone saw you was exiting the school grounds with a boy named Dorian... And he's told some people he likes to go to abandoned houses with friends of his so I just looked through all the abandoned houses in New York.- He laughs a bit. – And when I heard your voice just now I knew I had finally found you. It was no big deal.- I laugh a bit. Then I feel someone take my hand. Oliver tugs me towards him.

-Well you've wasted your time because now she's with me. And she even lost her virginity to me!- Once I hear those words I get so angry that I am probably fuming.

-What the hell are you talking about? You kissed me and it was the worst kiss I've ever had in my life! And you took my underwear while I was asleep like some little fucking pervert and blamed it on Boo! Plus you keep pushing me and pulling me everywhere like i'm some puppet! Just leave me alone!- He quickly lets go of me and I run towards Jason. No! I stop... Oh yeah... we had an agreement. Jason looks at me concerned. My eyes fill up with tears. I start sobbing uncontrollably. What are you doing? Stop crying!

-Why?! Why is this happening to me! I'm fucking crazy! I have a stupid voice in my head that tells me what to do! And even though I love you He makes me hate you! I just wish I could kiss you and hug you and go on a million picnics with you where you always show me something about the world I could never see before! I just wish...- But my sentence trails off because Jason already has me in his arms. He strokes my hair He doesn't protest or get angry at me but I get a pounding headache. I bury my face in Jason's chest and hope it goes away.

-Its ok. You're not crazy. I love you too and I also want to take you on a million more stupid little picnics if that's how much you like them... just don't cry.- He keeps whispering calming words into my ears but I don't believe them... he couldn't love me. No one could ever love me... but in that moment I couldn't help but hope that he was telling the truth.

When I wake up i'm in my sleeping bag. I look around and see that a few centimeters away from where I am someone is sleeping on the floor and I can also make out Oliver and Boo in their sleeping bags. So the only person who could be sleeping on the ground is... Jason. I look at him more closely... his beautiful, wonderful face. He's sleeping so peacefully. He shivers. Oh... he doesn't have a sleeping bag... I stand up and go to the closet. There are some sweaters left, I wonder who they belong to... I pull out the biggest and thickest ones. When I go back to Jason he's still fast asleep... I guess he isn't a light sleeper. I try to put one of the sweaters on him and my finger accidentally brushes his cheek... its basically freezing. Wow he's almost as cold as a corpse... he might get sick if I don't do something fast. So I put all the sweaters on him and then I got in them too so we were both in them together. I hugged him and I could feel my face getting hot but I told myself it was for his sake... and a little bit for me. I smiled to myself once I thought that and fell into a deep sleep while hugging the only person who I care about in the world.