Voice of The Past (Completed)

6.

We finally arrived at the destination.

 It took quite a while though and it's the middle of the night. I'm super sleepy and we have school tomorrow but who cares. We're in a giant field with flowers everywhere.

-Over here – He sets down a blanket which he pulled out from his backpack.

- Do you always carry around a blanket with you? – I ask him. 

- Yup. I come here every day after school... uh... that's  why i'm always late. – Huh? Doesn't he go home or study? Or anything like that?

- So you spend all your time here or in school? – That's kinda sad...

- Don't worry I get all my school work done. And im not homeless or anything I just prefer to come here instead of going home. Its my... my... my spot! – He's grinning. I lay back in the grass, looking up at the night sky.

- Hm... - The breeze gently caresses my face. I shiver a little.

- Are you cold? – He looks at me a bit concerned I guess.

- No, im fine... Just surprised. Surprised that my world could change so quickly. All my life I used to have many friends I was social and "pretty"... Then He came and I thought He was my savior. But He turned out to be... The only thing I spoke to for 6 and a half years. But now I... He isn't the only one I can talk too. – I don't even know what I mean by all that but I don't care.

- Well you've got me now so be happy. – He pats my head and smiles a tiny bit. He probably assumed He was a person. God he's so nice to me... I can feel the tears going down my cheeks I try to hide them but I cant. He pulls me closer to him. He's hugging me... Jerk. But for some reason I don't pull away. We stay like that for a while. Then I do pull away.

- W-we've spent all this time together and I don't even know your name. – I say.

- Huh? You want to know my name? – He grins.- Well I cant refuse a lady! – He stands up and bows in front of me.

- Hello my princess I will now introduce myself. My name is sir Jason. – He stands up straight, still grinning that stupid mischievous grin. I decide to play along with him.

- Well "sir" Jason. My name is "lady" Amanda – I stand up and I also bow. He starts laughing.

- Wow, didn't expect that "lady" Amanda. – Well now at least I know his name. He's still the same blond pig though. Its really late and my mom is gonna kill me for sure. So I have to go.

- Bye... I got to go. My mom will be super mad. – I start to get up. But he catches my arm.

- Please stay a bit more. – He looks at me with those big blue eyes. I'm drowning in his eyes. I guess I ill stay a bit more... I sit down next to him and lean on his shoulder.

- Ok. – I say quietly. We stare at the sky for at least an hour feels like less. The blondy gets up.

- Hm? Where are you going? – He takes my hand and pulls me up.

- I need to walk you home. That's what a gentleman does. And I am your boyfriend so it makes sense. – He winks at me. 

Stupido. My cheeks are getting a bit warm. I try not to look at him. We keep walking through the abandoned neighborhoods. I look up at the stars once more. Today was a really strange day. But He will be back tomorrow and I'll go back to my old lifestyle. A tear goes down my cheek but I quickly wipe it away. I don't think Jason noticed it.

We had been walking forever.

- How much longer? – I ask.

- So impatient. – Hm... Im so sleepy.

I yawn.

- Oh I see. We're sleepy, huh? Just a little more. – We keep walking, and walking, and walking, and walking, and WALKING. Goddammit im gonna die of... of walking! At some point we finally get to my street. Its almost day.

- Here we are. How about I come up and say hello to your mother? – He grins.

-No way!– I go in the building and start climbing the stairs.

-Hey! – He says. I turn around.

- Yeah? –

- See ya later! – He waves at me.

- Sure. Whatever. – For some reason I feel really happy... and sleepy.

I get up to my door. If I go through that means i'm ready to be screamed at. God I DON'T wanna do this. I push the door open a little bit. It creaks. Dammit. I sneak in trying not to make another sound. I go to my room. Whew. That was close. Then the door swings opens behind me. I turn around and feel pain on my left cheek my mother standing in front of me with her hand raised. She slapped me.

- Hi mom... - I say in a hate filled voice.

- Where were you!? Do you know how much I worried!! How can you go out with a guy like that!? You stupid girl!! – I hate her. I hate her. She keeps on screaming at me. I cant take it.

- Shut up! – I yell at her. She looks surprised but then furious.

- How dare you talk back to me!? I don't want to ever see you with that boy again!- She just wont stop. But she doesn't understand. She never will... Because she... she is... she is evil. 

I cover my ears. And keep thinking the same phrase: I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. She grabs my wrist.

- Listen to me when i'm talking to you! – Why wont she just shut up? Why is she still talking to me?

- Fuck off. I don't want to listen to your crap. I hate you! I hate you more than anything in the world! – I break her grip and head for the door.

- Wait! Don't go! Honey! – Too late. 

I'm already on the stairs. Walking as fast as possible. No, running. Running out of the building. I hate everyone. I don't wanna see them ever again. Why wont everyone just leave me alone? Why? Fuck them all! I'm so tired I cant think straight right now. I sit down on a random street next to a dumpster and fall asleep.

Wake up. Common wake up. Huh? He? Are you back already? Yes, I am. Where were you? It doesn't matter but we need to get to school. Oh yeah you're right! I quickly get up. Huh? Where am i? I look around trying to figure that out. Hm? Oh I see where I am. There's the restaurant we went by with blondy. Ugh. My head. There was a surge of pain. Stop thinking about him – says He. That boy is a nuisance. What do you mean? He is not to be trusted. You're wrong! I am not wrong, stupid girl. Don't call me stupid you stupid voice in my head! You'll see i'm the only one to be trusted when that boy does something horrible to you! Why cant you just leave me alone? I don't want a voice in my head anymore. I don't want people to think I'm crazy anymore. 

I start to walk in the direction of the school, wishing there was a way I could walk away from the voice at times like this. You idiot. I don't care what you think just leave me alone for now. Fine, but you will regret this. Yeah right. I could still feel He but at least it wasn't talking.

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