Something Rebellious || l.b.

Chapter 11

Here I am on a Friday afternoon, sitting on my bed being unproductive. How much of a typical teenager am I? I think about starting the assesment that was assigned to me about a week ago, but I still don't know what to write about. I've never had any experience with the topic given, why would opposites attract anyways? The hell I know. 

Then again, my Mom and Dad were opposites..I think. I never really put any thought into it, but now that I realize it my Dad used to be very outgoing, sarcastic, and he had a lot of love to give. My Mom she's very...how do I put it, she's very protective, she always keeps her guard up very well. I honestly don't understand how she's a teacher. Knowing that she has to put up with middle schoolers and she has to socialize with about 100 students every weekday impresses me that she manages to pull through it.

But when my Mom and Dad were together, you felt the love. My Mom would light up, she would embrace his touch, savor his kiss. Now that he's gone, the happiness left with him. I know my Mom is trying not to be do distant, but I know better. 

It hurts thinking that my Mom is my only family left and we've barely lit up a decent conversation since Dad passed. I want to her to reach out to me, tell me everything's okay, hug me, but I know that's not going to happen. I feel like we're strangers.

I feel...empty. 

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Should I ask him? I mean, I should because he needs the hours and I haven't seen the kids in a while. I don't want to ask him though, I feel really awkward

oh wait you are.

I've decided I wanted to go to the children's hospital right now, since I'm not busy. At the moment I'm in front of Luke's door debating if I should ask him to tag along or not. This is weird, you know what maybe I'll ask him next time.

Before long, he conviniently opens the door and catches me just as I was about to walk away.

"I wasn't stalking you." I say quickly.

stupid.

"Okay?" He said uncomfortably. 

I clear my throat. "I was just wondering if you wanted to come with me to the hospital..I'm going right now actually."I explain.

"I umm...I'm kind of busy right now." He says scratching the back of his neck 

I can't help but feel a little embarrassed. 

"Oh, okay. Well, I'll get going then." I say a little dissappointed, I begin to walk away again until another unfamiliar voice catches my attention

"Hey, I gotta go. My boyfriend is gonna wonder where I am." I stop in my tracks. I turn my body back around to glance the owner of the speaker. This girl looks a bit older, nineteen maybe twenty? What the hell. She tugs at the bottom of her shorts and took off quickly.

Luke avoided eye contact with me. 

"Wow, she even had a boyfriend? That's pretty low. Not only that, but you chose a hook up over doing some children a service by..." I can't even finish my sentence. I'm frustrated for him.

"I didn't know that you were gonna ask me to go." He tries to defend.

"That's a pathetic excuse and you know it." 

"Well who the hell are you to tell me what the fuck to do?! I don't know how, I don't know why, but we end up seeing each other and you always end up fucking nagging me!" He outrages.

"If you didn't notice, asshole. I'm trying to help you."

"I never asked for your help." He spits.