Mystic Messenger Book

I'll Always Love You~Zen Angst

..yes more angst because thats what im the best at lmao. this is a rewrite of another one shot btw

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He walked down the street, his hands stuffed in his pockets, head down, and shoulders slumped. He cancelled work today, just because of the date. Honestly, he wanted to do nothing but lay in bed all day, but he decided against it. He didn't log into the app at all. He didn't answer any calls from the other members, his manager, or anyone. He didn't even bring his phone.

Zen just wanted to be alone.

Today was a dreadful day. The sky was grey, cloudy, and looked as if it was about to rain. It matched his mood. Zen felt a little less lonely, knowing that the sky wasn't the only one who was upset. He got noticed a few times by some fans, and although he didn't want to be bothered at all, he managed to give them all fake, bright smiles.

Zen walked, and walked, until he finally reached his destination. He walked past the rows of graves and stopped in front of one. He stared at the name that was carved in the stone, his throat tightening, and heart aching as he read the words on it. Zen knelt down, touching the side of the tomb gently with his fingers, as if he was touching you. He imagined your face as the tomb and smiled painfully at it. He pulled his hand away, and pulled out a black velvet box from his pocket, gently placing it in front.

"Hey," He said softly, "I'm back. Did you miss me, babe?"

"I was going to propose today. That's why I brought the box. I bet you would've said yes."

Zen stared at the sky as the wind blew softly and gently against his body. He took a deep breath, and closed his eyes, moving his head back down to face the tomb.

"How are you doing up there? I hope you're doing fine. I'm doing okay, just in case you're wondering."

Zen opened his eyes, to find that a little droplet of water fell on the grave. He felt a little drop of rain fall on his nose right after. He sighed, and pulled his hood over his head.

"Do you remember when we first met?
Through the RFA Messenger app I found and got led to Rika's place?

Do you remember all those times you flirted with me?
All the words you said, made my heart flutter, and my cheeks flush red.
I always hid my face behind my hands whenever you said something sweet.

Remember when we saw the stars together that night?
How you held my hand so suddenly?
You were so cute that time.

Do you remember all the struggles we went through together?
It's not easy dating an actor, haha.

Do you remember all the dates we had?
How we got together?
Our first kiss?

Do you remember me?
My face, my smile, my voice?

Do you miss me?
My face, my smile, my voice?

'Cause I sure do.

I'm sorry it had to end this way.

I'm sorry I had to leave like Rika.

I'm really sorry, Zen.

Do you remember when you said that you were going to marry me?

I was so anxious, and kept waiting for that day to come.

If I don't make it, please don't be sad.
Please don't live the rest of your life alone.
Please don't live the rest of your life in pain.
Please don't cry.

I love you,

Zen."

It was pouring now. He was gradually getting soaked by the rain. Zen clutched the tombstone, tears falling from his eyes.

"[Name]..." He mumbled, "I miss you so much..."

He closed his eyes.

"[Name]..."

He remembered when he first met you.

"I..."

He remembered when he got you.

"Will..."

He remembered when he first kissed you.

"Always..."

He remembered finding you lying in the bathroom, lifeless.

"Always..."

He remember every single moment spent with you.

"Love you."

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do i regret this? probably

the original is better tbh i think lmao

why do i like killing you readers off omg

and yes, i posted two angst stories in one day are you proud of me

yes, you committed suicide.
i was originally gonna make the reader die from a plane crash but oh well too late

i gotta go because before i start spamming this book with angsty stories

why am i such in an angsty mood

-mei