Destined

chapter 9: Broken

Check out the above attachment. I just loved the lyrics. It's so beautiful.

*Ruby*

With that said he left me there to dwell in my own misery. For a while I couldn't believe what just happened.

I wanted to wake up from this nightmare, it must be a nightmare right? My mudassar wouldn't do such a thing.

I must be dreaming, yea, that's it. When I wake up from this nightmare he will be there to hold me, console me, make me feel better, will hug me till all my tears stop.

After all it's Mudassar, my Mudassar, my best friend, my first love, my rock, my hopes and dreams, the one I have been rooting for almost 5yrs.

And slowly one by one all of our memories started making their appearance

Me and him in kindergarten, waking side by side, holding hands, me scared to death and him convincing me that it won't be bad and he will be there for me.

Then me and him in playground when I was 7, playing tag, when I fell down and injured my knees him kissing them and saying his kiss will always heal my wounds.

7th grade when I was bullied by seniors him  supporting me, fighting with them and serving detention,

Then the memories of us near lake, lying side by side thinking of future.

Then when I learnt about our betrothal, him convincing me and pleading me to give it a chance.

Him calling me his girlfriend, and proposing me,

Finally when he said goodbye at hostel,

I just couldn't believe what to believe anymore, I wanted to deny whatever happened in last hour, I still wanted to believe it's a nightmare,

But the falling rain, proved that it's reality, some I wasn't prepared to face, something which was beyond my imagination,

Each passing memory, and his words of confession towards sania were making me sick, making me feel suffocated,

The anguish of my heart, the withering pain, the feeling of devastation was too much for me to bear,

Giving birth is suppose to be most painful, and then removal of tooth, those all medical books must be wrong, they might have never felt the pain of broken heart,

Otherwise they would have mentioned it.

His words have shattered me completely, left me with desolation.

Suddenly I felt hot rage, the kind of rage which demanding me to destroy something, something I have read in behavioural disorder,

Which compiles one to act irrationally, I wanted to do that, I wanted to hit something, I wanted to kill that person who is responsible for my anguish.

I just wanted to do something to soothe my broken heart, I was turning insane I could feel that

My thoughts were taking negative turns.

I felt as if everything was a lie, may be he never loved me, may be he pretended till now. Pretended to care, to love,...

Or may be something is wrong with me, maybe I wasn't pretty enough for him, I wasn't beautiful like his sania, wasn't confident and smart like her,

I wanted to end myself, for not being pretty enough, for not being beautiful and smart enough, wanted to punish myself for being the way I am.

I don't remember what time it was, may be an hour has passed or minutes, I had no idea of my surroundings,

The heaviness of rain did nothing to soothe my pain, all I wanted to do was give up.
Give up on everything,  sleep peacefully and never to wake up again...

I was aware after sometime someone found me, they were trying to tell me something, but I was far away to respond to them,

I remember them taking me to somewhere warm, and tucking me into a bed.

With the pain I closed my eyes, hoping to have some sleep.

That night i slept completely broken , crushed .

And his words were lullaby for my nightmares.

_rebel ridz

Hello guys, sorry I haven't been uploading from past few months, well I had massive writer's block, and trust me it's a bitch.

Then I had to settle in my new life it took me 6 months for that.

So from now on I will try to upload atleast once a week.

So all your votes, comments, and suggestions are welcome.

LOVE YA'LL