Unworthy

Decisions

9/16/16

Today I overheard some football players
They're in my art class
Bragging about how they slept with the same girl
She's a freshman
Just like me
She's 14
Just like me
She's vulnerable
Just like me
But most of all, she's lonely
Poor girl
It pains me to know that she attracts negative attention
It pains me to know that I can't help her
If only she had a friend to keep her company
Then she wouldn't go seek it elsewhere
Poor girl
I just want to help

They spit vile words
Saying she's an easy slut
Saying she'll do any guy
Saying she gives a great blow job
I heard other boys, too
Talking about what they would do to her
I want to silence them
She doesn't deserve that

Just because she made some mistakes
Made some bad decisions
It doesn't make her evil
Just because she had sex
It doesn't make her easy
Just because she let a boy do terrible things to her
It doesn't make her submissive

I know this girl
She's very strong
She's nice
She's polite
They took advantage of her
They used her
They treat her like trash
They're in the wrong
Not her

This is the same group of football players
That got arrested for rape a few weeks earlier
They chose to force a girl,
A different girl,
Into something she wasn't ready for
Into something she said no to
Into something the police ignored

These football players
Called her a whore for telling the police
I wish I knew who she was
I wish I could talk to her
Tell her she did the right thing
I wish I could comfort her
Tell her it's okay to be traumatized
To be afraid
To feel dirty
To cry it out
To tell someone
I wish that she knew
She isn't alone

I wish both girls knew
I want to help them
But I can't
I don't know how

-AAA

I just found out who the girl is
She's a grade lower than I
That's even worse
I know this girl, too