9/18/16
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Multiple meanings
If you're a religious person,
I'm not (I googled it),
You'd know Jesus gave his followers a template for confrontation
A 2000 year old book
Read by millions
Yet, we still can't get it right
My kind of confrontation
Involves the soul
I need to present my heart
Explain my hurt
To someone who might not listen
I got the courage to text him
I told him we need to talk soon
"Okay"
He didn't ask questions
"We need to talk" is never a good sign
I'm almost disappointed
Expecting a list of questions
Receiving a simple word
I'm glad he's acting calmly
Most of all, I'm surprised
If you knew this boy,
You would know
What a little ball of anxiety he is
Was
He's calmer now
I would've gotten a different response 6 months ago
I'm happy he isn't stressed out
I'm scared
I don't want to say anything
I know I have to
I'm a coward
I don't think I can
I already started it
I'm pissed off
I wish this wasn't necessary
It's a major inconvenience
I'm hopeful
A conversation
Or maybe multiple
Might fix things
I don't want our relationship to end
If it does,
At least I was a whole person before
I'll have someone to go back to
If it does,
Things will be awkward
We're in high school band
We have the same social circle
The same friends
He might coerce them to choose sides
If it does,
I'll never find another person
So unique,
So strong,
So smart,
Ever again
This is high school
Why did I think it could ever last?
Why did I let myself get swept away?
Why did I choose to set myself up for pain?
Why did I?
Why?
It hasn't even ended yet
And I'm already preparing for the worst
Really shows how confident I am
How does a person move on?
You've dedicated so much time
Let them invade your thoughts
Cleared a spot in your heart
Gained hope for the future
I know I'll move on
But I'm not sure how I'll change
Will I grow cold?
Bitter?
Spiteful?
Promiscuous?
Will I despise this person?
Will the process of moving on change me at all?
Should it?
I want to stay with him
But I don't know if I will
In my miniscule existence
I learned one important thing:
The unknown
That is the true fear of humanity
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Unworthy
PoetryLet explain what this is. It's not something important. This story is me writing about my personal life experience. This story is my therapy. It's really for me and me only. In this, I will cover a wide range of topics. All of what I say is true...
