Unworthy

Sexuality

9/20/16

Most freshman
Don't know they're queer
Most haven't even considered it
Most freshman
Have never truly questioned themselves
Fear of being uncertain
Fear of being gay
Or labeled "other"
Me,
I guess I'm different
I don't care what people think
As long as I know who I am,
As long as I accept myself,
That's all I care about
I don't need the validation of other people to tell me who I love is okay
Boys, girls
I like it all
I didn't choose to be this way
I wouldn't choose to change

How do I know?
It happened a few years ago
Not to quote Katy Perry, but
I kissed a girl and I liked it
That kiss opened another world
It granted me so many options
I discovered a new side of myself
When it first happened, I thought
;How did I not know?"
"Why does my mom look down upon these people?"
"Why isn't this okay?"

My sexuality doesn't completely define me

I'm not only bisexual
I'm also:
Androgynous
A writer
An artist
A learner
An adventurer
An honors student
A friend
A dreamer
An opportunist
A future psychologist

You see politicians in the news
Wanting to ban gay marriage
As a kid,
I didn't know that was oppression
I thought that's how it was supposed to be
But 7th grade came
There was an assignment
Write an essay. For or against gay marriage
That was my favourite essay
I was on a journey
To discover what's so bad about being different
CNN,
News articles,
Scientific studies on the brain,
Discovering what transgender is,
Asking my mom,
Ignoring my mom,
Asking my dad,
(Hard to believe a man so traditional in his ways accepted gay people)

Meeting a gay man,
Meeting his husband- and kids,
People,
Questions,
Hypotheticals,
I discovered the problem

There isn't one

No one is wrong for embracing oneself
Gay, lesbian, bisexual, straight, asexual, polyamorous, curious
It's all okay
It shouldn't matter who accepts you
A person loving someone out of the norm affects no one other than the two involved
It's beautiful
No different than any other love
It is the same love
Love is love, no matter who you share your heart with

I know there are many who judge
If they won't let two men or women marry, they shouldn't be allowed to get married either
I had a substitute teacher tell me I was going to hell
(I couldn't make this up if I tried)
What a bigot
I wish I had the courage to say one thing

"If your almighty god didn't want queer people, he wouldn't have made any. There is nothing wrong with us. And we're happy this way."

-AAA