I'm really upset
The boy I've been talking about
I think I need to break up with him
He's not as nice as he used to be
It seems as if he doesn't respect me
He talks to me
Like I'm stupid
I ask a question
He always has a painfully sarcastic response
I make a joke
He rolls his eyes
Maybe it's not funny
There's no need to be rude
He never talks to me anymore
I don't always expect him to
But,
It's obvious when a person prefers not to speak to you
I try to be nice
Keep my issues to myself
I don't want to be the whiny bitch
A person can only take so much
I know I'm not the smartest
But I definitely don't deserve that treatment
Sure, it might not seem so terrible
Put yourself in my shoes
Your significant other starts acting harsh out of the blue
No explanation
No apologies
Hell, they probably don't even care enough to realize it
How would you feel?
Or maybe
I was too stupid to notice until now
Maybe he was this way all along
Maybe I let the excitement of a relationship cloud my judgement
It's sad
Took me 5 months to take note
A person says they want to be with you,
Promises you forever,
But then they say something that promises:
"Maybe not"
How blind could I possibly be?
Maybe I need to end us
I won't right away
I don't want to at all
I want to reason with him
I want to hear his side of the story
We both have issues to fix
He might see something in me that I don't
Most importantly,
I want to know if he's willing to even listen
Will my words fly right by my guy?
He might not be mine
Once I confront him
That's horrifying
Someone I shared secrets with
Someone I sought guidance from
Someone that knows everything about me
Someone that I spent time with
Someone that I'm willing to risk everything for
Someone I trust
Someone that used to see me
Someone, who for the first time,
I love them
It might just vanish in a second
I'd rather not do this
I really don't want a conflict between us
But I need to address this
I need him to know:
I'm hurt
And unintentionally,
He caused it all
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I don't plan on making author's notes a thing. I despise these quite a bit. I'm just very unsure of my situation. I hope I'm making the right decisions. Please let me know via private message if there's evidence I'm doing this out of irrationality, or if there's another solution I'm not seeing here. Please and thank you.
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Unworthy
PoetryLet explain what this is. It's not something important. This story is me writing about my personal life experience. This story is my therapy. It's really for me and me only. In this, I will cover a wide range of topics. All of what I say is true...
