9/17/16
Most moms love their kids
Most moms don't have conditional affections
Most moms don't make you compete for their attention
My mom
Is not most moms
Welcome to my family
Dad has 8 kids
Never graduated high school
Never realized who my mom truly is
A very smart man
But a hopeless romantic
He married three times
Has kids with all of them
Never been financially stable
We're never living comfortably
Mom never finished middle school
Only has four kids
Mentally cripples us and physically limits us
Makes it to where we have to depend on her
I'm not allowed to wash dishes
Don't know how to cook at all
Never taught how to work a washer and dryer
I wasn't allowed to get a summer job
Mommy also steals money from me
Anything I get disappears
She goes through my trash
Before I can toss it out
Doesn't trust me
I've done nothing to lose that trust
Never had it in the first place
I'm late from school
"Where we're you? Out whorin' around?"
I'm sick. I'm vomiting. I have the flu
"You're probably fucking pregnant."
I'm staying up late to do homework
"You staying up late being a shit?"
This is life
Not every day,
Just when it matters
She studies me
Knows what makes me tick
Knows when to strike
Knows what I won't eat
When she's mad
I'm the trash can to kick
Oh, she won't hit me
But she'll lash out
Blame me for her mistakes
On the night's we fight
She'll cook something I won't eat
Throws out all the other food
Mommy will make damn sure I won't eat
Everyone else in the house
Does nothing to help me
Stays out of her way
Follows her orders
I'm too smart for that
I know to fight for myself
She knows it too
That's why she tries so hard to break me
I'm the one child
That's independent
That won't bow down
That has a voice
I will not stand down
I know that I can break free
The others don't
They try to tell me to stop
But I never will
As soon as I grow up
I'm leaving
And I'm never looking back
I've made it clear to everyone
I'm working hard now
To get a scholarship later
Don't know what for yet
But I'm going to do something no one in my family ever will
I'm going to be a success
-AAA
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Unworthy
ПоэзияLet explain what this is. It's not something important. This story is me writing about my personal life experience. This story is my therapy. It's really for me and me only. In this, I will cover a wide range of topics. All of what I say is true...
