Letting Go

chapter 14

Jaycen Rafael's POV

Hay! Stress! Trabaho rito. Trabaho doon. My ghad! Stressed out sa projects.

Sinisipon ako ngayon. Noong isang araw nilagnat rin ako. I need to go to the hospital kahit ayaw ko pa.

This is for my own good rin naman. I still have alot of jobs pa this month na kailangan tapusin. Well I am student slash businessman so I really have to take of my health at chaka sa pagbabalik niya. I dont want her to see me like this. I want her to see me gloomy and not stressed.

After office works nag drive naagad ako papuntang hospital.

Pagdating ko sa hospital agad akong pumasok. Nasa hallway ng biglang may nakastretcher na babaeng sinusugod sa er.

Kinabahan ako. Medyo nakita ko yung mukha niya. Wag naman sana. Pero.... pero... hindi ako pwedeng magkamali. I know every tip of her.

Parang sasabog ang dibdib ko sa kaba. I cant even breath normally. Parang ang sakit ng puso ko.

I did a sign of the cross and prays na sana hindi siya yon.

Hindi ko namalayan na sinundan ko sa emergency room ang babae. Pag karating ko kung san siya pinasok ay may babaeng nakatayo na nakacorporate attire. Parang alalang alala siya. Maybe she's a relative.

I dont mind her nalang at umupo sa parang upuan. Ahhhh! Just a thought of her being in this hospital makes me feel pain and worried.

There's alot of question running all over my mind.

"Who's the relative of the patient?"

"Doc, im her secretary. I already contact her mom and she already got her flight back here. But doc, may i know her condition?"

Impossible naman siya yun diba? Sana. Sana. I'll just wait for signs.

"Actually iha, your boss is not in a good state. She needs an operation this while. She cant live this if she'll make this long."

Sana. Sana wag siya.

"Actually doc she already have decided. Her relatives nalang po or her nalang po ang tanungin niyo in other matters. Thank you doc."

Agad naman umalis ang doctor. Ang babae naman ay umupo sa tabi ko. I glance her secretly and she's crying. I hate to admit that i pity her and i dont like her crying. Not that what you think! Gab is my only one. Its just that, i remeber Gab on her. Too fragile.

"Miss, not that na pakialamero ako but its just that i remember someone in you. But can you care to share? Para naman miss gumaan yung problema niya."

Actually, hindi ako pakialamero o madaldal sadyang nababahala lang talaga kase ako.

"Naaawa ho kase ako ke madamme. Bata pa ho siya pero marami na siyang dinadala, marami nang nangyari sa buhay niya. Napakabait po ni madamme. Sa pagsama ko po sakanya sa paglibot libot sa ibang bansa marami ho siyang tinuro sakin. Marami na ho siya naitulong sakin. Bata pa ho siya para mawala."

Sigurong napakabait ng taong yun. Para akong nadala sa kalungkutan ng babae na ito. Sa totoo lang? Maraming nagbago sa akin simula ng umalis siya. Natuto akong makinig at magmalasakit sa iba. Siya ang nagpalambot nitong bato kong puso.

"Trust her. And trust God. Kapit lang."

She just continue to sob hanggang sa nagringang cellphone niya. Tumayo siya at sinagot ang tawag. Tinignan niya ako naparang nagsasabing 'excuse me lang po'.

"Madamme Goodmorning....Yes madamme....Im at the hospital right now madamme and waiting for some instructions from you and from the doctor for her condition...... I'll just call your driver madamme...Yes madamme... I'll wait for you here madamme and for the doctors further notice."

She sighed after the call.

"Thank you ho pala. Medyo gumaan nga ho pakiramdam ko. Hindi rin po sa pangangaialam pero po, pwede ho bang magtanong kun bat ho kayo nandito?"

"Im worried."

"Bakit naman po?"

"Wag nalang akong i po. Im Jaycen." Inoffer ko ang right hand ko. Tinanggap niya naman.

"Suzy."

"I think she's the girl i am waiting and looking for."

Kanina pa ako nagpapakatatag. Parang tutulo na ang luha ko. Isa nalang ang kulang. CONFIRMATION.

Parang naguluhan naman si Suzy.

"Si madamme ho?"

I just nodded.

"Care to share."

"Some year ago, i met this girl, she's so clumsy yet fragile girl. She always get bullied yet came a time that i got interested with her so i save her. She is strong emotionally. I taken her for granted and I really did regret it. I lost her yet I found her now. BTW,...