the 100 preferences & imagines - H.Q

Numb | Finn Collins

The air is silent yet people chatter, murmurs about what happened at TonDC with Finn and Murphy. It sickened me, not what happened at the village. The horrid things the people were saying about Finn sickened me to the point of breaking down and screaming in the middle of camp Jaha.
There he is, all by himself. He literally has nobody for him now. Clarke can't even look at him, Murphy thinks he's the crazy one, Bellamy blames it all on him, and Raven. I don't even know what the hell Raven thinks of him to be totally honest. My legs begin moving underneath me and soon leading me to the one and only, Finn Collins.

"If your here to blame me for everything go ahead" he says
I don't say a word, he sighs and begins to walk away
"Wait!" I grab his shoulder and he turns around
"What?" He rolls his eyes
"I don't blame you for what happened at TonDC, and I don't think your a monster Finn. And I definitely know that you didn't mean to do any damage" I look into his eyes and he softens
"I killed innocent people Y/N, how could ever talk to me again? Let alone be standing near me right now?" He replies quickly and I shake my head
"Finn, your not a monster. Your a normal human bei-"
"Oh normal? Don't even go there with normal Y/N! People like us, we don't get normal!" ( yes that is a suicide squad reference )

"Okay. So your not perfect, I'm not, Kane's not, Abby's not. Nobody is Finn"
"I still killed those people..."
"It was a mistake! Can't you see that? I was there with you and Murphy! You had an outburst and didn't mean to do any harm at all!" I scream as we earn looks from people around us
"But I did! I nearly killed you too!" He yelled back and I stayed silent
"I don't know if you you remember Y/N but I had that gun pointed to your head. I lowered it and accidentally shot you in the leg, now you have a brace just like Raven. I'm just an accident walking"
"Finn..."
"No stop"

It stayed silent for a while and I broke it.
"Finn I need you to listen to me" I grip both his shoulder with my soft hands and he reluctantly looks me in the eyes
"I love you okay? I don't care that your not perfect! I don't care that you shot me in the god damn leg! I-I love you Finn..." My eyes widen as I yell
"How can you ever love me? I'm a monster, you deserve so much better. And I'll be dammed if I'm gonna drag you down with me, go live you life Y/N. Forget about me" He says before nudging my hands off him and walking away

I feel so numb and empty, only Finn can fill it but he won't let me.

Finn, come back to me...

Honestly do not know what this one was. Was in a sad mood and thought 'hey I'm gonna go write a sad Finn one' :)
Anywho,
Enjoy!