Difference is My Middle Name.

Part 5

I sat on the grass next to the sidewalk waiting for Reese to show up. The wind was blowing quite fiercely.  Closing my eyes I inhaled. The air was cold. I felt almost relieved that it was cold. The tingly  sensation of the icy wind being absorbed by my lungs it felt refreshing.

      What was I supposed to do for 15 minutes. A small sigh ventured out of my mouth as I grabbed my headphones. The first song to play was 'Life is Beautiful' by Sixx AM. "just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful. will you swear on your life that no one will cry at my funeral."

      For some odd reason this song put me in a deep thought process. Taking me back to this morning. Who am I supposed to be, and why am I even here? Do i even belong here? In the past I had suffered from severe depression. Starting last year I had thought it kind of faded away, so I stopped taking my medication. Was that a bad idea? I swallowed hard.

     I found my hands shaking, not because it was cold however, but because I found myself thinking about what I had done before. It scared me to think that there is a possibility I would go back. I didn't want to go back. All I wanted was to be happy. Why couldn't I be happy? What was stopping me from being happy, I mean didn't I have it all? A roof over my head. Any girl I could ever want, a mother that cared for me, A father figure. Granted not a good one at all, but I had one. What was making me act like this. When was the last time I smiled because I was actually happy?

     My thoughts were disturbed by the honking of a horn. Reeses car had pulled up along side the rode. He was smiling and patiently waiting for me to gather myself.

     I got in the car and put my seat belt on. Silence emanated while we sat there. "Are you okay bro?" Reese asked curiously. Reese knew what I had done in the past he was there with me through it all. "I need to start taking my medication again." I glanced over at Reese his face was worried. "Are you okay?" I didn't say anything. Reese took the hint. "You know" He paused for a moment. "Maybe school isn't the best idea right now, let's go to my house." He smiled at me. His smile was so perfect, he had braces in the past and now his smile was bright and perfect. "Let's pick up Naomi, okay?" He patted my shoulder.

A/N: yes this chapter was really short but the next one is going to be awesome I'm so excited for it!