Androgyny

Twenty

Vanoss

Today, today is the big day. The day I'm finally with him forever, and I can keep him safe, forever in my arms. I turned to myself in the mirror. The dark colored tux, the whiteness of the dress shirt under it, and the brightness of the red bow right in the middle. 

In the corner of my eye, I spotted Brock walking into the room. 

"How is he?"

"He looks fucking amazing... how are you?" 

"I think I'm good, just a little nervous." 

"Don't be, you've got this. You protected him from everything, all that bull shit, and now you're marrying him. It's amazing dude. It really is, watching them walk down the isle nervously, with the flowers in their hands, and brightness of their eyes as they smile at you and continue walking, and you fall even more in love with their walking style. And then they're finally in front of you, and you can see even more of the beautiful-ness of their eye color. Then both of you are saying the wonderful, deep meaning, vows, and then those two words fall out of your mouth, "I do." You kiss, and that kiss will be almost as good as your first kiss. You both stop kissing as everyone stands and claps, everyone either crying or smiling, or even both. But you, your the most happiest man in the world, to have your love finally with you forever, for life." I looked at Brock, his smile huge. 

"Did you just describe your wedding?"

"Yes, and what I felt, and it's going to be amazing for you Evan, I promise." 

Delirious

I finished the rest of my eyeliner, the darkness making my blue eyes stick out. I loved that look. I looked in the mirror. 

This is the last time I'd look in the mirror and have that look of depression across my face. After today, I'd be looking in the mirror with my love by my side, and the most brightness smile on my face. 

As I looked at myself, and thought, the door to Evan's parent's room creaked open. I turned around and saw Luke, "Hey, Jon, it's time my man." I smiled, as my nerves jumped up and down. 

Luke wrapped his arm with mine, and we walked out. Our whole wedding was planned to be in Evan's backyard, the place he grew up. 

We walked outside and everyone stood up and the wonderful music started playing, and I spotted those beautiful brown eyes. He smiled, and I watched his cheeks heat up when I smiled back. 

The music filled my ears as I continued walking on the thrown roses by my niece, that my sister never told me about. I watched as Moo stood beside Vanoss, smiling just as bright. 

Luke smiled at me one last time before I stepped up before my love. 

The priest looked at both of us and smiled, he took out his book and started, "We are gathered here today..." 

Through the whole speech and the vows, I stared at Evan, his beautiful brown eyes, the ones I'd look into for the rest of my life. The ones I'd wake up to every morning. 

His voice, the sound of it, 24/7, 365. 

The sweetness of us as a family, the padding of feet running around. 

A little boy, or girl, or even both. 

The sweetness of his kisses. 

The happiness of the giggles. 

"Do you, Jonathan Dennis, take Evan Fong as your lovely husband?"

I fell into those brown eyes once more, "I do."

I swear I started to hear buzzing in the distance but it was probably a bug in the nature or something. 

"Do you Evan Fong, take Jonathan Dennis as your wonderful husband?" 

The buzzing got louder, and it sounded like a car engine.

"I do." 

"You may now kiss the groom-" 

The sound grew louder, and the sight of a red sports car flew out behind the arch. The priest ran as Vanoss pushed me out of the way. People scattered, and as I hit the ground I heard the most terrible sound. The sound of a car meeting a body. 

I screamed as I watched the weight of the car smash the lower half of Evan's body. Everyone surrounded him as people pulled out their phones. 

"Oh my god! Who would do such a thing?" I heard Tyler scream. 

The blurriness of my tears cleared as I noticed the person stepping out of the car, it was my brother... Sam. 

I swallowed my tears and tried standing up, but only meeting Evan's crushed body again. I screamed once more and fell down, my world crashing and burning, as the love of my life slowly died, and my mind went blank. 

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