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Party Time (Part 1)

November's party outfit as above 

November's P.O.V

Ariana and I needed to debrief after that whole thing with that girl, who I have now learnt that her name is Brittany. 

As Ariana and I were talking about what happened, Alice and Hayley walked into the bathroom as well and as soon as they saw me, they hugged me 

Alice said, "Girl, that was the funniest thing I have ever seen at school" 

Hayley said, "I died when you said that stuff to her" 

I couldn't help but smile, these girls gave me a newfound confidence that I never knew I had in me. I'm used to suppressing my emotions and confidence, but maybe that will change 

No

It can't 

My father wouldn't like that

I brushed off my previous thought and zone back into the conversation that the girls were having and I heard my name in amongst it.

Ariana said "... November did freeze and I thought that was the end, but damn girl you came back and shot her down"

Do I tell them why? 

I could just be slightly honest and not fully tell them

I sigh and look towards them and say "She brought up my looks, and it triggered me I just get self-conscious about it"

They all look at me with sadness in their eyes and then they all start talking to me at the time

"Oh girl, don't believe anything she says, you're beautiful"

"How dare she say that"

"November you are a beautiful girl"

I couldn't help but get teary

How great are my friends 

It's weird to say that since in my whole life, I have never had strong friendships before, but this is as real as it gets.

Even though I have only known these girls for a few days, I know that I will always have them by my side.

I don't say anything to them 

I just pull them all in a big hug 

They know that I couldn't express how much that meant to me

We all just stand there for a few minutes until Ariana says, "There is this party tonight at someone's house, how about we go to it and let loose to forget about our problems"

The girls agree and start to become really excited about getting ready and being indecisive about what to wear 

But all I could think about was what I would do

Do I risk going out?

My father normally passed out drunk at nighttime

I don't think he would wake up to notice that I was not home 

F**k it 

I'm going to do something for myself once 

I'm gonna go 

I start to engage in conversation with the girls about the plans for tonight what I will wear and the finer details. 

I have never been to a party

That sounds lame but I am not allowed to socialise, my father always said that people wouldn't like hanging out with me and that I should just stay in my room