Why me?! (A Justin Bieber Fanfic)

Chapter 10 part 1: Maybe It's Me

I'm pretty sure you can cut the tension with a knife in this elevator. I suddenly feel Chaz's arm slip round my waist, I smile to myself. I hear Chaz chuckle beside me, it's so cute to see him this happy and all because of me he is happy.

"What's so funny?" I say breaking the awkward silence in the elevator, Chaz shakes his head refusing to answer me. I roll my eyes playfully. Elena nudges me, I look up at her to only realise that Justin is staring at me and Chaz. I can see the longing in his eyes, like he wants something he can't have. Maybe it's me. It can't be can it? I thought he was over that.

"What are you looking at?" I ask Justin as I see his cheeks start to turn red, I smirk and instantly knowing what he wants. Me. I don't want him, I don't like him like that. I've grown to like his music, it's not bad but I still love Neck Deep, Pierce The Veil etc. I think our music tastes make us two separate people that might never be together, of course we can't be together. I can't be with him because we're so romantically different and because I'm dating his best friend.

"Ermm well I'm not looking at you, well I erm... You know... You got a... Little something on your face," Justin begins to stutter, I scoff.

"It's called make up Justin," I say and laugh, Justin smiles and I feel Chaz stiffen. I inwardly sigh, why does this have to happen to me?! Can't I just stay with Chaz without someone trying to ruin it or whatever. The elevator dings indicating its reached our floor, well Chaz and Justin's floor. We walk out of the lift and head down the corridor, Elena and Justin both leading the way while Chaz and I follow behind.

"Why are you flirting with Justin," Chaz asks, I can hear the slight harshness in his voice. I'm not sure if he means it though so I shake it off.

"I was talking with a friend. I don't flirt with other guys especially because I love you," I say making sure I exaggerate the word friend. Chaz rolls his eyes and grips my wrist tightly and stops both of us walking, I wince from how tightly he's holding my wrists. The pain is bearable but I can't believe Chaz is hurting me, he's not hurt me or even threatened to hurt me. I could never imagine him hurting me like he is now, but I guess people change.

"You used to cut, you didn't tell me that and now you are flirting with my best friend... In front of me. And now you're lying about it to my face," Chaz spits, every word harsher than the last. His grip grows tighter and starts to hurt my hands and tears threaten to fall down my cheeks.

"Chaz you're hurting me," I say as I start to sob, his grip only gets tighter and I'm in full on tears. He glares at me, I close my eyes while feeling the pain. I suddenly feel the pain go away and I feel that Chaz's hand isn't there anymore. I slowly open my eyes as tears still fall down my cheeks, I see Justin standing in front of me. I can see that he looks angry but there is a little bit love. Wait, love for me? I feel myself leaning forward, my eyes close and soon I feel Justin's lips on mine. The soft feel of his lips on mine, it feels amazing. Before I know it I no longer feel his lips on mine, I open my eyes and see Chaz looking between Justin and I. I can see the hurt in his eyes, he shakes his head at me and walks further down the corridor.

"What does this mean for us?" Justin says, his face holding the clear expression of hope. Completely ignoring the fact he just kissed his best friends girlfriend.

'I...I don't know' I stutter. What does this mean for me and Justin? I'm sure I don't have feelings for him, I don't know why I kissed him. It was in the heat of the moment I just wish it didn't happen.

"Does someone want to fill me in on what the hell is happening?!" Elena exclaims.

"Forget it... Can you go talk to Chaz? While you're there tell him, Sheyla hates him and never wants to talk to him again so basically... He's no longer my boyfriend," I say, Elena nods and walks to where Chaz had just walked down. I still can't process what just happened. I'm not the kind of girl who usually cries, which you might know already, but he hurt me physically. No guy should do that to the one he supposedly loves.

"Look Sheyla I-" Justin begins.

"Justin we can't. This is not right, Chaz is your best friend. I didn't mean to hurt him, that was never my intention so let's just let it go" I say interrupting him.

'Was... Was my best friend' Justin corrects me, I nod and sigh.

"I don't want to rush things and I don't like you like that," I say and play with my fingers distracting me from Justin's face.

"I can change your mind, Sheyla just let me change your mind... Come on you're with me... Travel the world with me and I can change your mind," he says and takes my hand in his. Without any hesitation or thought, I nod.

"Are you serious?" He says and his eyes light up and his smile widens.

"Yes... If you don't want me to change my mind you better keep your mouth shut," I say, Justin pretends to zip his lips. I can't believe this is happening, am I sure I want to go through with it? Sod it, I ask myself too many questions. I need to live for the now and make every second count.