Why me?! (A Justin Bieber Fanfic)

Chapter 18: I'm Jealous

Sheyla’s POV

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1 day later
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I still don't understand what I did wrong. Just because I'm with Justin doesn't mean that they can hate me. I'm distracted from my trance when I hear Justin's ringtone, he looks at it and smiles widely. He answers the phone and he sounds truly happy, like he did when we found out I'm pregnant.

"Tanya! I know it's been far too long," Justin says, who's Tanya? Should I be jealous? Justin completely ignores me and walks to the corner and faces away from me, I thought he was supposed to be here for me. I guess not. Elena walks in and gives me my phone.

“I was using it sorry,” Elena says and smiles. I nod and she acknowledges the fact that I look a bit upset. She sits in the chair next to me.

“What’s wrong Shey,” Elena says, I look down at my hands and sigh.

“I’m just being paranoid, Justin is talking on the phone with a girl called Tanya.” I say and sigh again. Elena laughs.

“He won’t do anything stupid, trust me. He’s liked you since the start, he won’t just ruin it. What have I always told you? The world makes all kind of rules for love I say you got to let it do what it does.” She says, I nod not believing what she says. That quote, the one she uses all the time to make me feel better, isn’t working right now. I look over at Justin and then look at the bedside stand and pick up my earphones placed on the top of it, I plug them into my phone and put the earphones in my ears, I press play. The first song that starts to play is “Second & Sebring” by Of Mice & Men, I look over at Justin and he’s smiling widely. I know that Tanya is the reason for that smile, I can’t bring myself to believe that he’s going to stay with me. Yeah I know I’m pregnant with his baby but it won’t stop him from leaving me, I sigh and start to listen to the song taking in all the lyrics.

I believe it's time for me to be famous, 
And out of place.
I believe it's time for me to move forward, 
When I break through.

This time I'll make you, 
Proud to see me over, come on day light.
Proud of, who you raised.
Your shelter, your peacefulness.
So this time I'll make you proud.

Proud of who you raised up.
You know that I will
Always be here till' the end.

Come back so I can say thank you for this, 
Home cooked meals and a place to rest, 
My troubled head when you're away, 
I've passed the test, I've earned an A, 
Not just in school, but in life, 
You'll always be right by my side.
To help me show, hope to all, 
That are lost and sick in this dying world.
I'll use the love you left behind, 
I'll change their minds, I'll change their minds.

I stare at the door and I feel tears fall down my cheeks, I know I’m being dramatic but I’m just so scared to lose him.

I hope, I hope you smile, 
When you look down on me.
I hope you smile.

This can't, 
We won't know.
I hope that I make you proud.

This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side.
This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side.

During the instrumental I look over at Justin and he is on the phone still, not paying me any attention. I’m not selfish or anything but I feel alone right now, like there’s no one there for me. When I say no one, I mean Justin. Everyone else is there for me, apart from my dad. Not the one person that knocked me up in the first place, how am I supposed to expect him to help with this baby if he can't even look at me while talking to Tanya.

This is not what it is, only baby scars.
I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side, Yeah.

As the song ends I’m crying, not for attention, the song gets to me in a way that no one will ever know. I forget that the song is on repeat and it starts again, I rip out my earphones and throw my phone to the end of the bed. I curl up into a ball and everything suddenly comes to mind, the baby, the pills, Justin, the Tanya girl. Everything. It pains me to think that maybe just maybe if I leave and just move away then everyone would be better off, Justin probably really doesn’t want this baby. I should move. It’s better for everyone if I just leave. Yeah. I’ll leave again. This time for good, maybe to Australia, New Zealand or England. Maybe I will, I’ll leave again. I know I’m running away from my responsibilities but I just can’t handle it, I can’t find a way to cope with it all I really just can’t. Soon enough I’m taken away from my thoughts when I feel strong arms wrap around me, it’s Justin.

“Whatever it is baby we can get through this,” Justin says trying to reassure me.

“No, you can’t help me. Only I can do this, just me. Not you.” I whisper.

“I can help, I’m here for you and I’m never leaving.” He says and starts to kiss my neck, I giggle.

“What about when you go off with... Tanya.” I say and spit out her name like it was poison, I hear Justin sigh.

“Is this what this is about?” Justin says.

“Yes it is, I’m fucking pregnant with your child. I’m jealous,” I say.

“Whatever just get ready to go, You should be able to leave now.” Justin says and he sounds a bit pissed off. I get out of the bed and walk over to my clothes, I get dressed right in front of Justin well because he’s already seen everything. I pick up my bags and walk out without waiting for him, if he doesn’t acknowledge me why should I wait for him? I walk to the reception just tell them I’m leaving and then I walk out to find Pattie standing outside, I smile at her as we all get in the car.

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2 months later
(4 months pregnant)
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I’ve just got my visa to move to Australia, it looks like I’m leaving for good. This should be fun, I’ve got a house in Adelaide. I’ve heard it’s family based so I guess that’s good and it’s near the beach so it means days out, I’m flying out tonight because Justin is going on tour tonight and he’ll think I’m going with him. I just can’t go but some part of me is telling me something else. Justin. It's pulling me towards him.