Why me?! (A Justin Bieber Fanfic)

Chapter 16: Why Me?!

Justin's POV

I walk into the room and tears stream down my face, she's just lying there. Motionless. I hear the faint beeps of the heart machine, I smile weakly just knowing she's alive makes me feel a little better. I rush over to her bedside and sob quietly. I think she's in a coma but I can't tell, I sit on the chair by the bed. I've said it so many times but this is my fault, I just can't help but blame myself. I hold her right hand in both of my hands, the door opens and reveals my mum, Elena, Fredo, Scooter, Allison and Sheyla's parents. Sheyla's dad gives me evils, more tears stream down my face.

"Back off dad, you don't know what Justin's been through because you haven't been here. He's been around more than you ever have." Matt says, Sheyla's mum smiles at me.

"Thank you Justin, you saved our little girl. I know how much you mean to her and how much she means to you, I just hope she pulls through for your sake." Sheyla's mum says, I nod and I feel Sheyla's hand twitch. My eyes widen.

"Someone get the doctor, I think she's waking up." I shout, Matt and his dad run out. I rub circles on the back of her hand.

"I'm here Sheyla, I'll always be here." I whisper just as a doctor walks in and sighs.

"Only 3 people in here at a time," The doctor says.

"Me, her mum and Matt." Her dad says glaring at me, I look down. I don't understand why he hates me so much, I haven't done anything to hurt his daughter. I would never hurt Sheyla.

"No, Justin, Matt and Elena. I think she'd rather see her friends and brother before anyone else," Sheyla's mum says and my mum agrees. Everyone but Matt, Elena and I leave. The doctor walks over to her and opens one of her eyes and flashes a light in her eye.

"She should begin to wake up soon, no need to call me when she wakes up unless she's in pain." the doctor says, he walks out just as Sheyla gives my hand a squeeze. I start to smile and tears stream down my face from pure happiness, Sheyla's eyes flutter open. She lets go of my hand and slowly sits up, she glares at me.

"Why did you try to contact me?" She shouts, I look down.

"I was worried about you, can't I care about my girlfriend?" I say trying not to get angry.

"I told you not to, this is all your fault. If I hadn't had contact with you, this wouldn't have happened." She shouts. I get up and walk out of the room, I don't look back and I stand against the wall. Forgetting that everyone is there, I begin to cry again and I slide down the wall. I know I'm being overly emotional but she's my world and I saved her, yet she blames me for her downfall. It's not my complete fault that I cared enough to check on her, I guess Sheyla doesn't want me anymore. I can't pretend that everything is okay because it's not and I can't go in there and say that to her. I just can't.

"Justin honey, is everything okay?" Mum says, I shake my head.

"She hates me, she says its my fault that she overdosed. It's not because I was making sure she was okay, I rushed there and she... She... Was just there... There was nothing I could do. Nothing." I say, I sniffle between every few words. I rest my head on my knees and wrap my arms around my legs, like I'm in my own world. Nothing is disturbing me, haunting me or troubling me anymore. My own bubble. I like it this way.

Sheyla's POV.

"You shouldn't have said that Sheyla," Elena says, I look away and remember everything me and Justin did together. Tears form in my eyes but I wipe them away, I can't show them I want to cry and that I'm broken. I'm going to be strong I've been weak for too long and it ended up hurting me, it lead me to a suicide attempt. The thing I'm against, I've cut (self harm) but I've never thought of suicide. But I was weak, Justin was the reason I held on. I felt like I lost him, I can't do this without him, I can't recover.

"Matt, get Justin please. If he doesn't come tell him I'm sorry, he's the reason I pulled through." I say and look down, I see one of Justin's watches on my wrist. Several tears start to fall and I can't help but sob, Elena is instantly by my side.

"I messed it up, my life is nothing without Justin."

"So is mine, but without you I mean." I hear Justin rambles. Elena moves away from my side but I stare at the door, Justin is standing there nervously looking at me.

"I'm sorry," We both say at the same time, we laugh nervously.

"Do you guys mind?" I say looking between Matt and Elena, they just walk out, without saying a word, leaving me and Justin alone. He walks to my bedside and sits on the edge of the bed.

"I didn't mean to say those things, I really just wanted someone to blame for why I did it. But you're the reason I held on for so long. If I had nothing to live for, I wouldn't be here" I say.

"Don't say that," Justin instantly says.

"I just want you to know I don't blame you for any of this," I say and lean over leaving a small space for him to move in, he leans in too. Just as we're about to kiss the door open. Justin moves away and so do I, I see its my parents. I look down and Justin moves over to the chair. They always have to ruin everything, it's annoying they ruin it for me just because they must know everything, but they don't need to know everything. I know it's a parents duty to look after and know about their children but they're never around to do it normally, I just don't even care about them anymore. I can see my dad giving Justin death stares and I roll my eyes.

"Dad, Justin is the reason why I'm still alive. You wouldn't have checked on me if you were actually home but he did, either you respect him or you lose my respect for you, if I even had any left." I say and Justin looks down. The doctor walks in and looks at me and then at my parents.

"There's chance that Sheyla could be pregnant," The doctor says, I look at Justin and he's already looking at me. All I remember is that it was our 3 month anniversary so we went out for a drink and ended up drunk, the next morning I woke up naked in Justin's hotel room with a hangover, that was 2 months ago. Why is it always me? Why me?!