battle scars // h.s

Chapter 22.

Chapter 22.

You Could Be Happy – Snow Patrol

Counting Stars – OneRepublic

Secrets – OneRepublic

Stubborn Love – The Lumineers

*Lillian POV*

“Where are you taking me?” I asked, as my tears had almost completely stopped.

“Somewhere.” He replied, bitterly. His hand tightened around my wrist, as he pulled me along the street.

“Don’t-t hurt me-e.” I whimpered.

He stopped abruptly and came really close to my face.

“Trust me sweetheart, you may have had to worry about me before; he is way worse. Do me a favour and shut up right now. Thanks.” He spit, his neck veins popping out, big time.

I had so many questions I wanted to ask him. So many answers I desperately need.

The biggest question I have is,

Do you like me?

His response might crush me though…

*Harry POV*

We started down my street, yes I am taking Lillian to my house.

“Where are we?” she spoke up. Maybe I was a little rough on her earlier. She just keeps drawing the short end of the stick. But then again if she wasn’t so ignorant and naïve she wouldn’t be so easily manipulated and humiliated. When she first arrived at Valley, I found it so funny to bug her, but Brianna took it too far. That’s when I first started to reevaluate my approach. Now I feel like a douche, but I don’t know if liking her will fix anything. There I said it, I don’t take that back. I like Lillian Morris. Its too bad she will never like me back, after messing with her for so long I wouldn’t be surprised if she despises me.

“…Harry?” she whispered. Brought back into reality I saw that I walked her right up to my front door.

“C’mon…” I said unlocking the door and stepping inside, only to stop again to face her.

“…please, be quiet. My mum’s most likely asleep.” I said and her face was blank. She just nodded, a look of fear and shock was on her face.

I brought her upstairs to my room, the guest bedroom is under renovations so…

It was 11:34pm. Wow really? I thought it was way after midnight already.

“…why can’t you just take me home?” she sniffled.

“Why can’t you shut up? I’m doing you a favour here, it would help if you just went with it.” I yelled. I can only do the thing I know the best, to hurt the ones I love.

“Your dad doesn’t want you at home, that’s why he bought you an apartment. Don’t you see? No one wants you.”

She was silent. Her mouth opened but she couldn’t say anything. She crawled up the bed and slipped under the covers slowly. She placed her phone on the bed side table, it glowed with text messages, unopened and unanswered.

“…good-d-d night-t-t…” she whispered so low that I barely caught it.

I just turned around, walked out and shut the door, a little too loud. As I reached the top of the stairs I heard her loud sobbing. I couldn’t do it.

I walked back to my room, stopping at the door. She was trying not to be loud, trying to suppress her sobs, choking on them and hiccupping. I turned the knob, stepping inside closing it quietly this time after me.

She looked up at me, her face was a mess, she just looked done with everything.

“I’m sorry I’ll stop don’t hurt me…” she murmured.

I shook my head, shut my eyes tight and lifted my hand.

She watched me closely, her eyes like a scared deer, as I walked around to the opposite side of the bed.

“What-t are you…-” “Shhh!”

I slid into the bed next to her, and she tensed up.

“I really just want to…umm…apologize to you…”

*Lillian POV*

I just stared at him, I mean what am I suppose to do or say? He is really confusing, one minute he’s degrading me and the next he's standing up for me. Its really starting to affect me mentally.

“Look, there is no amount of apology that will make up for the shit I put you through, but I want you to know I am sorry. My life is fucked up and I really need to learn how to manage myself because I uhh push away people I uhh care about I guess…” he said, eyes fixed on the ceiling.

“its ok Harry, I’m use to it…” I replied and his eyes snapped to mine.

“No, its not ok!” he said his voice loud. “Sorry” he immediately replied when he saw me cringe.

“Do you have any Advil or pain killers?” I asked and he nodded, standing up, and walking into the bathroom down the hall. He came back a few minutes later, with a glass of water and two aspirin.

“Thank you.” I replied, happily taking the aspirin and downing the water. I was sitting up in the bed, legs crossed and he sat down on the bed in front of me.

“What time is it?” he asked, and I slowly grabbed my phone, looking right to his watch, resting on his left wrist.

“11:59, last minute of 2012.” I replied, keeping my eyes on the seconds, ticking away.

“46…47…48…49…” I said quietly. I closed my eyes and started the count down from 10.

“10…9…8…7…” I looked up to Harry and he seemed so interested in me, it was creepy really.

“6…5…4…” he moved around a little.

“3…2…1… 12:00am” before I could look up warm, soft lips were on mine.

They are familiar, I never forgot the feel of them. My eyes were closed savoring the feeling and the butterflies erupted in my belly. If there weren’t actual fireworks going off right now outside I would swear I hear them around us. So cliché but hey! I don’t care!

We pulled apart, and I felt the room had gone up in temperature. He is really just a scared boy, someone who needs to feel good and loved.

“Harry…” I said, forgetting what to say next.

“Lillian I really like you. I-I’ve been fighting it, and-d I don’t-t want to anymore…” he said, his expression serious.

I smiled a gentle and caring smile. He really makes me happy. I know he has tortured me but I just have learned to deal with it.

“So don’t.” I breathed and he smiled, a smile so deep I saw his heart shine through, his dimples finally poke out, this time because of me.

“I’m really sorry Lillian…” he said again and I shook my head.

“No more Harry. I’m alright.” I replied.

I yawned and Harry suggested that I get some sleep. I crawled back under the covers. I'm my jeans and shirt, not caring. He climbed in next to me but stayed on the top of the sheets.

“Goodnight beautiful.”

AN: HIII! Hope your all well! Update for you on this busy weekend for me! Hope you enjoy it, and vote + comment for me please! – Natalie