Have Mercy {Z Nation AU}

Sisters

We lost Addy. We fucking lost her. Why couldn't she stay? Shes the only one who knows. Shes the only one who knows. Soon it is gonna show. This thing inside me that I never asked for. I can already see it, the little tiny bloating in my stomach. It hasn't gone down, it's inside me and it's getting bigger and bigger every day.

We pulled up on the side of the road at dawn, to make camp. I shoved my journal back into my bag, a little too hastily, and Doc made a face. 

"Doc, Murhpy, Cassandra, we'll all sleep first; 10k, Emma, you two all good to keep watch for a few hours?" Roberta asked us, and we both nodded. 

We made a fire, even though the heat of the day would soon set in, my fingers were so cold that I couldn't move them. I watched as Murphy and Doc set up the tent together, and climbed in. Cass and Warren took the truck. Space was easier now, Addy was with the sisters and Mack was god knows where. But it still hurt to our group slowly get smaller and smaller. About an hour passed before 10k sat down across from me, I still didn't know if he particularly liked me or no, but too bad. In this world, the person surviving with you may as well be your best friend.

"Now that Addy and Mack are gone, what do we do?" I asked. He looked up at me, with his almost puppy dog eyes.

"We survive."

"There's something you should know. Warren doesn't know, none of them." I said as I looked over at the truck, and then the tent. I realized that any one of them could be awake, but it was important, that someone should know, "Do you remember the carnival?" The night in the truck, before..?" I asked him. I felt my stomach turn, and he nodded.

"I'm pregnant." I spat the words out before I had the chance to reconsider saying anything.

"From the-"

"Yeah. From that night." I cut him off. I lifted my shirt and stood up, revealing the tiny bump, just above the waistline of my jeans. He stood up with his mouth open slightly, and I wondered what was going through his mind. 

"Im sorry." He said. I started to cry, because it wasn't his fault. Or mine.

"You don't need to apologise." I looked up at him, through a teary eye, and a blind milk white eye. "No one has to."

"Yes, I do, I left you that night. I should've been there. If I hadn't of left you, this.." He waved his hand to my abdomen. "Wouldn't be happening right now. It's my fault."

He walked over to where I was standing, looking at the ground. And wrapped his arms around me. I sank into his arms, and stood there what seemed like hours but was only minutes until someone cleared their throat. 

Warren.

"You two done or do I need to get back into the truck?" She asked sternly, and we shook our heads.

She walked over to the tent, peeked inside, and woke up Doc and Murphy. "Rise and shine, these two need a break." They both groaned, but got up. Murphy wandered over to bushes on the other side of the fire. I got down on my knees and curled up against the edge of the tiny tent, 10k followed me in, and pressed his back to mine. 

"You can't tell them. No matter what happens, you cant tell them. Not yet." I whispered, to the side panel of the tent. He shifted behind me, and I felt him press his chest against me. 

"I wont." He whispered back, as he wrapped his arm around my waist, his hand resting on the bump.