Crash Queens and Motor Babies

Maybe, Maybe Not

I woke up to my alarm clock beeping like crazy. I hit the snooze button and rolled onto my stomach. It was too early for this shit, why the hell did I wake up so early?

"Daddy!" Katy screeched as she ran into my room. "Time to go!"

Oh yeah.

"KJ..." I moaned when she jumped onto my bed. When I looked at Katy she was fully dressed, even though her shirt was on backwards and nothing matched. I guess she tried to do her hair too but that resulted in a messy side ponytail with half of her hair out. "You got yourself dressed?"

She nodded proudly, "Yep!" She twirled around for me. "Don't I look pretty?"

I laughed, it was cute seeing Katy pose for me, but i was going to have to change her clothes. I already had a trick up my sleeve too. "You look beautiful sweetie, but... I actually had a super special outfit set out for you today. After all, it is your second day of school... Just let me get dressed, 'kay?"

My trick worked. She shrieked and ran out of my room. I sighed happily and hulled myself out of bed, leaving the warm sheets and placing my feet on the cold hardwood floor. The cold made me shiver but I pushed the cold aside and walked to my dresser. The pants I was wearing yesterday were on the floor beside my dresser.

I slipped on a red flannel, grey jeans, and my favorite black Converse. I didn't have to do my hair, it was too short to do anything to it now. When Brook left I had such long hair I could have pulled it back into a ponytail. She used to love threading her fingers through my hair so when she left I wanted to get rid of it.

Stop it, it's not about her anymore!

I took everything out of my old jeans and I shoved everything I needed into the grey jeans pockets. My keys, phone, headphones, pack of smokes, and my wallet were all I needed to last the day. Katy was wining in the her room so I pulled on a black hoodie and went to her room.

"Where is it, Daddy!" She yelled.

"Um... I'm comin'," I told her and walked into her room.

It was painted her favorite color, purple. It was a little darker than normal purple. She's been wanting a mural on the wall for a while but I haven't found anyone to paint it how she wants it. She wants a big castle that has unicorns flying, a bunch of rainbow flowers, and to top it off, Snow White singing in front of all of it. I swear, Katy's imagination is one of the creative I've witnessed in a child.

Her little twin bed had purple covers and the frame way painted black. Thinking about it now, her room was pretty dark. She had a window that was covered by white curtains so it probably made everything lighter. Her toys were scattered everywhere and I managed to step on her crown.

"Ow! My fucking foot!" The crown slid and I fell back onto her pop up princess castle. On the way down I managed to hit my head on the carpeted floor.

"Daddy!" She ran to me and kneeled on my chest, making me wince in pain. "Are you okay?"

I nodded my head stiffly, "Yeah, I'm okay. Watch out KJ, let me get up."

She got off my chest and I sat up. My head was pounding and I saw black blurs everywhere. I felt awful, but I didn't want Katy to feel guilty about hurting her dad, so I got up from the floor slowly. When I was finally up it took me a while to get my balance back.

"Are you okay, daddy?" Katy asked again.

"Yeah, just- Let me get your super special outfit," I muttered. I went to her closet and got her nicest dress out, a black ballerina dress. It had a pink and black leopard print belt that went around her waist. Her leggings matched her belt and I pulled out her pink boots.