Let Me Love You (Lauren Jauregui/You)

Chapter 6

'Lauren, what does this mean?'

'What are you talking about?', Lauren asked me, confused as to what I meant

'I talking about us, like, we're kissing, and it's getting pretty intense, and if I hadn't stopped it we might have had sex', I said bluntly, 'but what then? Would it just go back to how it was or would we be like...a we....?', I asked her hopefully

She backed away from me a bit and I was sure she regretted everything that had just happened.

'I meant what I said y/n. I love you. But I'm still scared. I want us to be an us, I really do, be I can't'

'Great, that settles it then', I said coldly, turning and opening the door to leave, but before I could, she slammed the it shut again.

'You didn't let me finish', she said, the beginnings of a smirk appearing on her face, 'I can't do it publicly'

'So you want me to be your secret girlfriend?', I asked her still slightly annoyed

'Is that not okay...?', she asked losing some of her confidence

'It's fine I guess, it's just, I kinda want to be able to go out with you in public, you know, and talk about you in interviews, without having to say you're being difficult', I told her

'I want that too y/n, but we can't, maybe one day, but not now', she told me sadly, 'also, um...', she trailed off, obviously not wanting to say what she was going to say next

'what?', I asked, puzzled by her nervousness

'Could we maybe, like, possibly, perhaps not tell the girls, at least for now'

I have to admit, that did sting a little, plus I didn't really understand why she didn't want to tell them, they'd known about us before, so why couldn't they know now?

'Why?'

'I just don't want anyone to know for now, we can tell them eventually, but for now can we just keep it between us?'

'Fine', I said not bothering to push her further, because I really didn't want to have to argue with her.

She leaned in again and pressed her lips against mine gently. We slowly moved our lips together. It felt good being able to kiss her again, even if it did have to be a secret.

'We should probably go to sleep, we gotta get up in the morning', Lauren said pulling away from me.

'Ugh, fine', I groaned, turning to go to my bunk.

'Where are you going?', she asked me

'To sleep, like you said...', I told her, a little confused

'We'll sleep in the back, so we can be together without having to be in a bunk and have the girls get suspicious if they find us', she explained, 'we can just say we fell asleep whilst talking or something'

'Oh, uh, okay', she looked at me funny

'Do you not want to?', she asked, sounding worried

'No no. I mean, yeah I do, I just, I was surprised', I said quickly, trying to sound enthusiastic without making it weird. Why the hell was I being so awkward all of a sudden, it's just Lauren. I guess I was just stunned or something.

Soon enough we were both cuddled up on the big couch in the back of the bus with a blanket over us, drifting off to sleep with my head buried in her neck.

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I woke up the next morning to Lauren gently shaking me.

'Hey baby, we gotta get up'