Home Is Where My Heart Is

Feelings Change

Home is where my heart is: Part 8

A/N: the dream starts when you see the * and ends when you see the second *.

'I heard my name being called, "JASMINE!...JAZZ!...BABY...." I turned around and there he was....'

Harry was running towards me, the expression on his face different to any of the others times I had ran into him. My emotions got the better of me as I dropped my bag and ran towards him, when we reached each other I threw my arms around his torso as he wrapped his around my waist pulling me as close as possible while lifting me off the ground still in his arms. I felt as if I wanted to cry as I buried my head into the crook of his neck and I started to kiss his shoulder, I don't know what I was doing, everything in my body telling me to continue but I just kept asking myself..why? Why was I doing this I was scared of him wasn't I? My thought where interrupted when I felt Harry shift on his feet, "Stay Baby...just a little longer.." His voice cracking, this made my heart break every part of me wanting to take away the pain as I wrapped my legs around his waist trying to hold on tighter, I was falling for this boy..hard, I had no control over it but I had to say something. I felt Harry's breath hitch a couple of times as I lifted my head from his shoulder and stared up in his eyes as I saw the tears threatening to spill, he leant down pressing a hard kiss to my lips as we both closed our eyes the kiss continued, it was needy kiss trying to hold on too each other, i felt his tongue run along my bottom lip, shit what was i gonna do i had never done this before, my thoughts where interrupted by Harry trying once more as I gave him access. A few moments later I pulled away for air resting my forehead against his own while he brushed his noes against my cheek, my first kiss..that was my first kiss, I had given Harry one of the most important things to me and it felt right. "Jazz we need to go!" Jaydee exclaimed, I didn't turn to face her nor did I try and release myself from Harry's grip I just stared at him until I felt hot tears runny down my face and I dropped my head to his shoulder as I heard him sniffling above me, but It was time to go. I released my legs from his waist and pushed myself away from him before turning and walking away from the boy I cared for.. The boy that was stealing my heart, I heard him run up behind me grabbing my waist and pulling me back into him once again lifting me from the floor causing the tears to stream down my face more than before and my body began to shake as I closed my eyes, "H-Harry..p-please.." I whispered through sharp breaths, he placed me on the floor turning me to face him once more as he placed his hand on my heart and placed mine on his causing me to sob on the spot, tears running down our faces like streams I didn't think they would ever stop, "you have my heart..." He whispered lifting my hand from his chest and kissing the back of it before pulling my body into his, "Look after it baby.... I'll be watching you." He muttered into my skin, the cold metal of his piercings running along my neck, something I was now accustomed too. I soon felt my arm being pulled away from Harry as I turned to see Kara, she pulled me into the car beside her as Jaydee was already inside. She pulled my head on to her shoulder as she ran her finger through my hair, I looked out the window to see Harry just standing there, staring into the car "Can we go please." Kara asked the driver and with that we where driving away, away from the beautiful monster that I had fallen for, the one I gave something special and the one that stole my heart..

As I sat on the train on my way back to Devon I started to feel my eyes flutter closed and I drifted off to sleep as I dreamed.. Dreamed of the boy, the beautiful monster..

* "you don't care Harry I'm just a fucking game to you! Why do you care that I'm leaving! The only thing your interested in is getting in my fucking pants!" I snapped as I stood by the taxi from earlier in the day, "what the fuck do you know! I care about you baby! Yeah you were a game at first, just another to add to the list but then you turned me down...you were different and it made me rethink. Every time you pushed me away it caused something to change inside me, I-I think I love you Jazz.." He stated, taking a step towards me, "I-i..." I stuttered before just falling into his arms, after a few minutes of silence and tears being spilled I knew I had to answer Harry, "I'll stay haz." I spoke snuggling in closer to his chest..but then he started to slip from my grasp, my body unable to move as Harry walked away from me, I was frantically screaming his name as tears fell down my cheeks...*

I was woken from my dream or more like nightmare by Kara shaking me as Jaydee stared at me worry crossing her face, "are you okay?" They asked at the same time, I just nodded my head while wiping the tears away with the sleeve of my jumper and the girls just continued to chat to each other, every once and a while looking up to make sure I was okay..but I wasn't, no matter if I was crying or not I was not okay. The train stopped and we left the train station as went our separate ways cause our mums where picking us up but Jaydee was hitching a ride with me as she only lived down the road, "Good time girls?" My mum called as we placed our bags in the boot of her silver estate, oh god please shut up she was all I needed right now. She was always nice in front of friends then a complete bitch when she got me alone, "yeah we had an amazing time thanks!" Jaydee called back as I climbed into the front seat and she climbed in the back. We drove back to our roads as my mum and Jaydee spoke about our trip, I just sated out the window my head being somewhere else, we dropped Jaydee off and drove to the house. We got in to the house I put a smile on my face and chatted to my mum for a while before going to my bedroom to which for once she didn't protest to, I changed into the top I had worn when I stayed with Harry and jumped into my own bed, my bedroom was covered in pictures of horses and various punk bands, I decided to text my friend Harley.. This was something I couldn't keep from her I mean I've known her all my life she kinda had to know, "you free tomoz?xx" I sent to her while waiting for a reply, I soon felt my phone vibrate on my chest, "yeah,I'll come to yours?xx" I thought for a while then had a sort of lightbulb moment "yeah my mum is going out and I'm going out to the horses later as they have something going on..they said it was important but I still HAD to come! ;) xx" I replied as a smile grew on my face, hopefully tomorrow would be good "okay see you at 9am!" She replied, I was fine with that so had no need to reply and I fell asleep once again dreaming of the boy...Harry.

I woke up in the morning to a bang on my door as my mum entered.."Jazz Harley is here and I'm going out so..see you Tuesday." She stated plainly as I sat up in my bed, "alright mum see ya then." I mumbled still half asleep, she left the room as Harley entered and jumped onto my bed "Spill! Tell me everything!" She exclaimed the excitement clear in her voice and on her face, I told her everything from day one to the dream I had on the train in the end tears once again running down my face as she pulled me into her throwing her arms around me while rubbing my back. I jumped at the sound of a knock at my front door, "who is that?!" I exclaimed, I didn't want to see anyone right now I just wanted to eat my weight in food and watch stupid chick flicks and then go and spend time with my wonderful second family. I scrambled out of bed still only in my t-shirt and slumped down the stairs, I unlocked the door and opened it keeping my eyes to the ground, "I love that shirt." A raspy voice spoke above me, wait I know that voice. I lifted my head an there they where......