Love Sick : The After Story

Assured

[Noh's Point Of View]

When I return to the rectangular room that it's the living room, I find it vacant. The two sunken spots that lie on top of the couch rely to me that those who had been here left no long ago. I carefully seat on the space I've had previously occupied and stare longingly at the sunken spot beside me, where Phun had been seating moments ago with a bright smile decorating his face, and sigh. That smile was probably gone now and it was all because of me. I should've been honest with him and told him the truth -that his mother was the one behind the call- instead of keeping it from him. The day he agreed to talk to his father, he had made me promise him to tell him everything concerning his parents. I had agreed willingly. His parents were more of his business than they were of mine. He deserved to know if they contacted me. And yet, I still went on and lied to him, showing him such distrust.   

Deep down I knew why I had acted like that; fear. I was afraid of the way he would react, of how his expression would change if I told him that his mother was reaching for me behind his back.I was also scared of seeing his dark side again. That untamed, aggressive, illogical side of his, that makes the blood in me rush and my hands grow cold. I thought I knew him better though, to tell that he wouldn't behave like that, at least not in front of his friend. I should've trusted him with at least that much. And I needn't to be this scared, really. It's not like Phun had tried anything to hurt me, physically nor emotionally, in the past. I should've trusted him, just like I've always done. I knew that he only cared about my happiness and well-being and that he had a reason for everything he did, even when he was at his worse. Then why didn't I do that? Why didn't I trust him instead of constructing this wall between us?

Suddenly, a door slams shut and brings me back from my course of thoughts. I see a figure from the corner of my eyes whirl as it turns around to lock the door as it usually does at this hour of the night. He was in charge of keeping us safely and had done a great job protecting us from intruders in our years of living together. Once the doorknob makes a click sound, I hear footsteps approaching and feel the couch sink as someone seats beside me. I don't have to turn around to know that the shadow that seats beside mine belongs to Phun.

Feeling nervous and fidgety, I keep my eyes cast low. A small movement catches my attention and I dart my eyes to realize that Captain had been in the room with me all this time. He is currently sleeping soundlessly and his tail is hanging loosely from the opposite couch. His innocent kitten features remind me of the day we retrieved him from the shelter, giving me courage to look at the person beside me.

"Did you say goodbye to Kai in my stead?" I finally ask him as I meet his piercing eyes whose expression I can't decipher. "Yup." He answers briefly as he raises the remote to change the channel.

Not knowing what else to say, I turn to look at the screen and decide to concentrate on the program that it's broadcasting. It's a game show. Whoever answers the most questions in less time wins a brand new car. This is one of my favorite shows and I should entertain myself with it, but some part of my mind isn't allowing me to engage myself in it. The air I'm breathing feels so thick that I have to breathe through my mouth to not suffocate. The distance between us makes me feel cold and lonely, even when he is right beside me. I have to get him back, otherwise I know I won't be able to sleep tonight.

"So, did your team win?" I ask him out of the blue, making him look at me baffled. "The football game, I mean?" I continue and the corner of his lip quirks upward as he contains a smile.