Why do I love you? (Harry Styles fan fiction)

Leaving life behind

I finally pluck up the courage to make my way downstairs.

It's 8pm by now nobody is in the living room.I make my way into the dining room and Harry and Natalie are eating diner.

"I made you diner if you want it" Harry says to me

"Thanks" I huff

"It's in the kitchen" He tells me not even bothering to look at me when he says that.

I retrieve my diner and an awkward silence fills the air as I sit down and eat my meal.

I hurry up and finish the food to avoid any conversation and wash my plate up before sauntering upstairs.

I retrieve the last photos of me and Harry that are littered around the house and pack them in my suitcase.Any last memory or belongs of my I shove in my bag.

After I decide to have a quick nap and set my alarm for 10pm.

When the alarm sounds I get up,have a shower and wash my hair.Hoping the hot water will relieve some of the stress and upset I have been caring on my shoulders for so long.

I decide to paint my toes and hands to help me relax myself.I get dressed in clean clothes again ready for my trip away from this world.Start again,a new me

Leave my friends behind,I do hope they're okay I haven't spoken to them in a while.I can't call them now and tell them I'm leaving it'll only break there hearts and mine to hear them cry.

I regret not contacting them but I'm thankful that they are getting on with there worlds now.Having friends and being an ex agent only makes me and them an easy target, so it's probably for the best anyway.

They have been such good friends to me,it's a shame I have returned he favour.Been to busy being wrapped up in Harry and my own world to notice them.

I let go of the rest of my tears and make sure I have everything before zipping up my case.

I dry my hair and throw it up in a bun.

I'm finally ready to go unfortunately without the most important person in my world,but that's just the way it's gonna have to be.I will get over him right,this is not the end.

By the time I've finished I wheel my cases out into the landing.Its 11pm and everyone is asleep.

I pas my Lisa's bedroom,I place £1000 under her pillow and kiss her on the forehead.I tiptoe into Harrys room.He is sound asleep and so is Natalie.

I walk round to Harrys side of the bed and place the fake passport and his ticket to Hawaii in an envelope and seal it,placing it on his side table with "Harry open when ready" on the top of it.

I place a photograph of me and him under his pillow I gently brush my lips against his careful not to wake him or Natalie as a tear rolls down my cheek and onto his white top.

"I love you,I always will" I whisper as I exit the room

I go downstairs,slip my trainer on and slam the door behind me.I pile my belonging into the car and drive away.

Looking back at what I used to call mine and Harrys.It would have pained me to say goodbye to Anne,I just can't bring myself to do that.Im lucky Harry stayed asleep when I left,otherwise I think I would have broken down.

Rain beats down on my windscreen and right now I can't wait to get to the hotel and go to bed.

I now have three days until I go on holiday and leave my old life behind.