We're Just More Gay

45 [Ive come back]

Ryan x: ugh

Gerard x: what

Ryan x: I'm so pissed

Gerard x: what's wrong ))):

Ryan x: I'm a total fucking failure

Gerard x: That is not true Ryan Ross

Ryan x: yea it is

Ryan x: I tried to kill myself and I failed and I promised I could get myself better but now I have to have a therapist and I'm just so fucking stupid I can't do anything right

Brendon x: Ryan babe please come talk to me and Dallon face to face

Ryan x: you'll just be like

Ryan x: you're hurting you need a therapist and I'll be like no I'm fine but you'll bring up my suicide attempt and say I need one and it'll just be this dumb circle, I don't want a therapist I'm fine

Dallon x: but Ry, you're not okay. Please

Ryan x: whatever you're going to make me get one

Brendon x: because we love you

Ryan x: and you're scared that I'm going to try it again

A/N- i came back with 572 notifications on this app, so sorry if I don't go through all of them. I'm so so tired but it was a really fun retreat and I made new friends and grew closer to two of my best friends and yea it was really nice. A bunch of people were asked to homecoming and it was really cute and yea idk I'm just really glad I was able to go ((: but yea short update to prove I'm alive