Wallflower (MILES X ALYA)

04

MILES' POV

I'll admit it. After that first note yesterday, I've been pretty curious. And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hoping to get another one. I smile to myself, as I slowly walk towards my locker and think about the note some more.

I mean, I was surprised in the first place that Julie agreed to go on a date with me, but someone else likes me too? And they really feel all those things about me?

My thoughts are interrupted as a similar tiny, white, envelope falls from my locker to the ground, beside my feet. I pick it up quickly, and stash it in my backpack so no one else can ask about it.

Then I look at the time. Crap! I was supposed to meet Julie in the field before school today. I guess I should probably go visit her before she gets even more angry.

As I walk begin to walk outside I realize I can already see Julie's hideously angry looking face from across the field. I'm happy that I'm with her, but she's definitely not the person I thought she was. Once she notices that I'm approaching her, she quickly stands up.

"Miles! Where the hell were you? You were supposed to be here an thirty minutes ago!" She screams.

"Julie, calm down. I'm sorry, I really am. I think I just lost track of time." I reply.

Her face softens a little bit.

"Fine. Just sit down and put your arm around me." She demands.

 I set my backpack down on the wool blanket she spread out, but as I do, the envelope comes sailing out. I attempt to put in back in without her noticing, but of course, she does.

"What's that?" She asks, gesturing to the letter in my hands.

"Oh this thing? It's nothing." I lie.

"If it's nothing, then why is your name on the front of it surrounded by hearts?" She questions, sounding even more suspicious.

I sigh.

"Fine. It's just some secret admirer letter." I say.

"Secret admirer letter?!"

"Julie, it's no big deal. Really."

"Well if it's no big deal then why are you keeping it instead of throwing it away?!"

"Hey, um you know what? I actually have to head off to practice with Alya! Yeah! Anyways, I'll see you later!" I say awkwardly, while quickly gathering my things and running off.

I hope she didn't notice that I completely made that up.

ALYA'S POV

Well, as usual, Julie bullied me the entire first period. I guess I'm kind of getting used to it. Yes, it still hurts a lot, but maybe it's hurting less?

She did seem a lot more pissed off today though. That can never mean anything good. When Julie gets mad, she gets MAD, and she usually likes to take it out on the first victim she can see, which typically turns out to be me.

My thoughts are proven to be right when I see Julie begin to walk towards me during second period. She grips my wrists tightly and pins me up against the first locker she sees. I can't help but wince as I feel my head bang against the cold metal, and can sense the blood slowly trickle from the back of my head, down my neck.

I manage to look up at her, and she's gritting her teeth so hard I'm surprised none of them have popped out. She's breathes heavily and I can already tell she's about to yell at me.

"You! You little skank. You better back off Miles, do you understand you stupid whore?" She screams, and then proceeds to spit in my face.

I nod my head slowly, and feel the hot tears begin to slip down my cheeks.

"Aww are you gonna cry? You know what? While you're at it, why don't you just go kill yourself?" She screams, and spits in my face one more time before shoving me to the ground.

She's right. I should just go kill myself. End everything. I don't deserve to live. 

I hang my head down low as I drag myself to my locker, already knowing what I need to do. I turn the lock and reach inside my backpack for the pills. More tears spill down my face.

I shut my locker and continue to trudge along to the bathroom only a couple feet away from my locker. No one uses this bathroom anyway, so I don't bother to go in a stall to get it done.

The capsule opens with a pop, and I slowly pour the small blue pills into my hand. I take a brief moment to count them all. 37. I just need to swallow these 37 pills and it will all be over. I pour them all in at once, and their bitter taste burns in my mouth as I struggle to gulp them all down. 

Eventually, they're all gone. And I will be too.

I smile to myself as the world around me fades to black.

I'm ready for this all to be over.

A/N

Hey guys! I know this chapter was a little darker than others, and it actually made me kind of depressed writing it ): I know the situation seems really bad right now, but don't worry! This is a Milya fanfic, so things right now might not be as bad as they seem. Anyways, thank you all for all the support on the last chapter! It made me so happy to read all your comments! I hope you all have a wonderful day! (: