Lost

Chapter 7

I wake up from a nightmare.

I sweat and I still hear myself screaming. Someone is pounding at my door. I look around and notice I am really in that new flat, I am really three hours away from my brothers. And yesterday really happened. And stupid me was hoping it was a nightmare. It is not.

Somehow I make my way to the door and open it. Joanna is staring at me.

“What?” I ask her and have absolutely no clue why she is looking at me like that.

“You know you’re screaming for at least an hour?” she asks me.

I bit my lower lip. Shit. “I am really sorry.”

“Can you just tell me who the fuck Luces is?” she questions.

It doesn’t even matter to me that I probably woke her up by screaming. But I wonder that I was screaming my brothers name loud and clear enough for her to understand it.

“That is my brothers name” I tell her and she frowns.

“Do you miss your home?” she asks me and I shake my head no.

If it was only that I would probably be glad and just tell them to get here. But having them with me won’t help. I know it does not, I tried enough things to stop my nightmares.

“No” I say and shake my head no. “I do not. I only had a nightmare.”

“A really hardcore one” she adds and I agree with her. They always are.

“Will you do this every night?” she asks me “And what are you dreaming about?”

I don’t want to tell her. She doesn’t need to know. I do know, that is enough.

“Probably yes, I am not sure about that. But you can hand me some medicine.. if I am totally knocked out it isn’t so loud.”

She stares at me. “And you? Does this help you?”

“No, not really. I still dream” I tell her and shrug my shoulders. “But I am used to that. It is ok. Actually I do not even remember living without them.”

“That’s.. I am sorry for you” she says and in her eyes is a real sadness.

“Don’t be” I say and give her small smile “I am fine. I told you I am. So..”

“I have bad news” the words break out of her.

Please, do not tell me it has something to do with Harry.. please not.

“Which are?” I think I do not want to know them.

“Harry called me, I didn’t even know where he has got my number from” Joss tells me.

Wonderful. “And what was he talking about? Nobody needs to get there?”

I really hope the crazy guy told Joanna that the house is already clean or that he found others to help him. I do not want anybody of us to go there. He seems to be intimidating and dangerous and I don’t like the way he act around me. I’d prefer staying away from him like two countries between us or something. And anybody else should stay away from him as well. I can not imagine that he has any friends out there. Why should people like him?

“No” she says and presses her lips together. “He wants you to get there in an hour. I told him you don’t drive a car, he said he doesn’t care and that you should hurry, he won’t wait.”

And there it is back again: the panic. Wow, it doesn’t take her to long to come back. How nice.

“How many time do I have?”, I ask her.