Lost

Chapter 26

I turn up the volume and the whole flat vibrates because of the music. Music is, what makes me write the most. It helps me to get ideas and I can not help it but smile all the way. I am in my own world, whoever this girl is I am writing about, she is a bit like me.

When I finish half of the chapter I stand up and change the music. I grin when I notice the song. Alli Simpson’s ‘Notice Me’. I loved this song when it launched, but I have not listened to it for a longer time now. This is not exactly my type of music but I somehow like it. That’s why I listen to it and sing along, as long as I know the lyrics. I remember when I sang that every time I saw someone good looking, I kind of remember this song all the time. Nowadays it is different. I am more into The Cab, Artic Monkey’s or The 1975. Pop music hasn’t been my type since the only one I ever loved made me hate him as much as possible. We used to listen to music like Lady Gaga, Taio Cruz and whoever. Those days are over and I wish they won’t come back like forever.

I turn around and see Joanna and Connor in the kitchen, laughing at me.

“Shit you know how to move your body” Joss screams to be louder than the music. I turn it off and grin at them while blushing hard. I never dance when people are around me, because I can not dance. This is so embarrassing.

“Hi” I say shyly and they both start laughing hard. “Not funny.”

“Yes, it is” Connor says and winks at me. As long it is only them..

“What are you both doing here anyways?” I ask them and Joss raises her brows.

“Sorry, but I do live here” she suggests and I nod.

“Sure yes, but weren’t you at Hazard?” I ask her and she shrugs her shoulders.

“Connor asked me if we should try to help you walking on heels. We need to start with that” Joss says and I gasp for air. I can not do that.

“That won’t work” I tell them and Joss crosses her arms.

“It will, I will make it work” she replies and I remember that my boss wanted to join me when I try to do it. So I take my phone and call him.

“Harper Collins, owner of HarperCollins Publishing” he says and I smile.

“This is Angeleyna Lyall” I say and laugh “got time right now?”

He laughs. “Ley. Sure I have. Why?”

“We wanted to try walking on heels.. Joss and Connor are already here” I say and he laughs.

“You better come here. I actually have the perfect hall for you to walk down” he says and I sigh.

“Are there people?” I ask him, because I do not want to blame myself.

“There are.. sometimes. Not many. Just get here” Harper says and I sigh.

“Ok, see you later” I say and we end the call.

I look at the others and they smile. I sigh and then point at Joanna’s room. “Take some low heels as well, please. I want to start with something I may be able to handle.”

She claps her hand in excitement. “Yes. That will be great.”

She runs away and I look at Connor. “Help me.”

He starts laughing hard. “I can’t. Sorry, but no.”

I nod and then see Joss coming back with a few pairs of shoes. Oh holy..

“These are all your shoes?” I ask her and she nods.

“Yep, I want you to try them all” she says and I almost pass out. Damn.

We get into Connors car and drive over. We reach the huge building finally and get into it, Harper is already waiting for us. He salutes us and we reply. The only awkward moment is, when Harper and Connor stare into each others eyes for more than ten seconds. That is, like Harry and I stared at each other when we met first. Weird.

“Let’s try it then” Harper finally says and we walk after him into a huge hall. I look down it and sigh while shaking my head no.

“I can not.” I really can not do that, I see it and I know it will not work out.

“You can” Joss says and then kicks me in my leg. “Now get out of these shoes, you will start with the easiest I have.”

I know they are high though and when I finally stand on them I can not believe I do that.

“I will fall” I say and Joss sighs.

“Ok, take Connor and Harper’s hands, they will help you walk” she suggests and a second later I have two gay people at each side of me.

I look at them and they smile. I sigh deeply and walk. The first way down there seems to keep going forever. I keep walking and can not reach the end of the damn hall. And I fall. Twice. We laugh and it is absolutely funny to look at me. But I somehow can not walk in these shoes. How should I ever get into the highest Joanna has?

When we finally reach the other side I get rid of their hands and lean against the wall. “That will never work. I am not made for shoes like these.”

“Bullshit” Connor says “you need to try. Practice makes perfect.”

“Not when it comes to me” I say and then stand between them again.

The way back is a bit better, I only fall once, because I step on my own feet but I get better and better. When we walk back to Joanna for the fifth time, I do not wiggle anymore.

“Ok, try to walk a bit slower and don’t make these huge steps.. more like.. ok, look here, I’ll show you” she says and gets into the highest heels she has. I can only stare at her when she walks down the hall perfectly. Wow.

“I will never ever look like that” I mention.

“You will, you need to walk on them more often” she says and I try again.

When my feet finally start hurting very bad I can walk on the lowest heels she has. I finally can walk, though it is with help. I am proud of myself, but glad that we finally end that shit.

“We will go shopping tomorrow” Joss tells Harper “she needs a few new things. And I would like to come back here in the evening. We could try again?”

Harper nods yes immediately. “Sure you can. I’d love you to come.”

We smile and then get back into Connor’s car.

“I really need my own car” I say and sigh. “You think I could make Harry get me there?”

Connor gulps. “If I were you I wouldn’t like to be alone with him.”

I nod. “Yeah but I do not want to take six hours of your day.”

He rolls his eyes. “As if I care.”

“I do not want to” I say again and shake my head.

“Want to go and have some ice cream?” Connor asks us.

I shake my head no. “I do not want to walk anymore. I would just like to get home in my bed.”

They both laugh and I just say nothing. When we are back home I almost fall into my bed and sleep, but first I call my brother and ask him about if he could get the car over to me.

“Sure” Luces says “me and Danyon would love to visit you anyways. It’s been almost two weeks now. It is different here without you.”

I laugh. “Maybe you can stay the night. When you come Friday?”

To have them here with me would be great, I already miss them. I really want them here with me and the thought of them meeting Joanna is very funny in my head.

“Ok, sure, I will ask Danyon tomorrow and then we will see.”

I smile. “Ok, I need some sleep now.”

He wishes me a good night and I wish him the same before we end the call and I finally get some sleep. I deserve some sleep!