sad boys - phan

phil

okay ive never been in this situation before?? but i tried my best. also hi!! to anyone from instagram, my instagram is lilp3achy im close to 5.2k! but yeah, more updates coming soon, im getting really into writing again. 

trigger warning- possible eating disorder or anxiety or self harm tendencies 

"call 911! call 911!"

"check his pulse! is he breathing?" 

"its okay, he's gonna be okay phil don't worry"

"what is happening?"

"phil lester?" a older doctor asked as phil sat in a hard chair of the emergency room waiting room. "yes?". "he's okay, but we have noticed a few things about why thins has happened to him" he said as he sat down next to phil and save him a sympathetic smile. 

"has dan showed any symptoms of an eating disorder? we think dan had passed out from lack of food, we think he might be anorexic. his body needed the nutrients and he wasn't giving it to himself, causing him to pass out from lack of food. i know this might be a lot to hear, but this is very serious". he spoke making sure no one else heard there conversation. phil just looked down at his lap, in shock from what he was hearing. dan? having an eating disorder? he hadn't noticed dan acting weird around him, but then again dan never really ate around him. "i havent really noticed him acting weird, i don't usually eat with him". "okay well we have also noticed some bruises on his hands that we think is from making himself vomit, or bulimia. when he goes home i want you to check on him a lot, but not where he feels like he's being babysat or watched. we also recommend for him to join a support group, i will give you a few numbers and websites when you leave". he said standing up starting to walk towards dans room. "you can go in and talk to him, he just might be a little tired". 

phil stood outside dans room. he couldn't believe what he was hearing. why wouldn't dan talk to him? phil had talked to him till 5am about his issues and insecurities many times, why would dan have gone to him? maybe he was embarrassed, i mean how would you bring that up? 'oh uh ya i make myself vomit'. phil rubbed off any mascara that was left on his face off and opened the door to dans room. 

walking in you could here the soft beeping of the machines and the sound of dan breathing. "hey" phil smiled as he walked over to the chair next to dans bed. he had dark circles under his eyes, his face was pale and his hair was all curly. "phil, your here" dan smiled as he sat up in his bed. 

"phil i'm so sorry i didn't tell you sooner, i was just embarrassed. i was so worried that you would leave me" dan whispered as he wiped away a tear with his sleeve. "dan we both know i would never do that. i have so many problems, and you have never left my side, and i will do the same. your my best friend and i will never judge you, okay?" phil said as he grabbed dans had and squeezed it. dan looked up at phil and grabbed his cheek, pulling phil closer to him. there faces close to each other there noses rubbing against each others. closing his eyes phil filled the gap between them. dans lips where chapped and rough but phil didn't mind. and phil's lip gloss was all on dans lips but neither of them cared. 

"i love you" dan said as they pulled away from each other. "i love you too" phil smiled, a blushing mess.