Pulse

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DAKOTAS POV

Dalton said something that seemed to be funny because he laughed and left the car.

"Um. Can I come in?" I blinked at my steering wheel and nodded. I don't want to look surprised, shaken, or weird because that's how I felt. I can't let him see me weak.

Did he hear me? Everything I said to Dalton?

"Were you...uh" I look at him now, in the passenger seat and his actually making eye contact with me. He nods, "Look, I" he cuts me off by kissing me.

Holy shit, is all i can think about. Did he really just? My body feels numb and my first reaction is to pull back but I can't. Before I try to he does.

"I know Im confusing okay? I don't really talk too much outside of our group. Even before you came. Because I didn't want to, didn't have to. Wasn't interested. But I talked you, first day at school that was all me, at the party; it's wasn't completely. I took mellow pills. It was easy to talk to you. Felt like I was talking to Sky, Leigh or Jade. Then I got scared and every time you were around I got panicky. I like you, maybe a lot. And I don't know how to show it, and it's so fucking weird saying it. I sound like a bitch. But I like you Dakota, and I didn't ignore you on purpose and I'm sorry."

I don't smile even though I kinda want to. His so kind and his kiss was gentle not longing or hungry. It was soft and nice.

I shake my head, and Zayn just stares, "Your gonna have to prove you're sorry." I say, I gently touch his cheek and light a cigarette and put my music up on max draining out Zayn's voice calling me. I check my car clock and the bell should be ringing for four period in 5 minutes.

I smile, he kissed me! I can't believe he kissed me...

From the conner of my eye I see Zayn trying to turn the music off, "The One" by a punk rock group from back home screams through out my car. He can't shut it off because my car is a piece of shit and I only know how to turn off the broken player.

Im still smiling, his lips felt like soft flowers against my ice cold lips.

He gives up and gets out the car, he must of slammed it because I can almost hear it shut through the music that shakes my car.

He kissed me. He likes me.

Prove to me sharp cheekbones that lay on Zayn, that you like me. Because I'm not likeable, why would you like me? Your going to hurt me won't you? Im nothing but broken pieces you,

won't understand. Prove to me, show me, prove to me, show me.

ZAYNS POV

"That's what she said?!" Liam questions. "Yeah! And she put some song on...so....loud. And she kept smiling. She looked forward and did nothing but smoke, smile and stare forward." I huff.

"I think she's crazy," Liam says. "You tell her everything. And she says nothing but you have to prove that you're sorry? She's crazy.."

I don't know if I'm angry at Dakota or now Liam. "She isn't crazy. And I probably need to go to Jenna. She'll probably know what I'll have to do." I calmly say.

"You must really like her mate. But don't work yourself up, if she isn't interested..she isn't. And you can't change that," I think he notices something because he adds, "I just don't want you to get hurt." He waves me off running to what I assume, basketball practice. While I go the opposite direction of the hall to look for Jenna.

I find Harry arranging his shirt down the empty halls, I must be getting warmer. "Hey!" Harry looks up. "In a rush. Where. Is. Jenna." I breathe out.

"Wait what's wrong?" No time for Caring Harry. When I don't reply he tells me she's in the shop workroom and I nod and jog upstairs and find her just leaving the room.

She notices me and finishes up her conversation with the people she's talking to, who seem older and comes towards me. "I've been waiting for you." She says.

I've heard Jenna talk nicer...

"What?" I say and she motions me to sit on the stairs with her.

"I called Dakota fourth period. She wasn't here for Study Skills so I called her. You kissed her," I nodded and she doesn't look happy.

"Look, I love Dakota okay? It's hard enough that you ignore her after leading her on then to spite her, date Leigh and try to make her jealous. And WHILE dating Leigh, out of all things you kiss her?" She looks at me and her eyes seem to be as if they were trying to burn me.

"Look, I apologized okay? I told her why I didn't talk to her. I wanted to come to you because I wanted some advice but if your just going to talk down to me. Sorry I bothered you and never mind." I stand up to leave and so does Jenna.

"Look, I just want her to be happy. And you seem to make her opposite. She's happy right now because she thinks you like her. But that's far from the truth isn't it? Dakota isn't like other girls, you can't just do what your doing and think it's okay. If you truly like her just prove it and show it. And..." Jenna points down the hall and I turn to see Leigh smiling and waving towards us. "And that's the place to start." Jenna hugs me and whispers into my neck, "Don't fuck this up."

I don't think it will be too hard to tell Leigh the truth. Not that Id lie to her. She comes behind me and softly kisses my cheek. "Hey. Is this your free period? Since it's last period, wanna go get some food? Im soooo hungry"

I don't say anything but look down at her. She smiles and even though I'm sure I'm not smiling, hers doesn't seem to go away.

"I know." She says and doesn't leave my eyes. "Your heart never belonged to me, I understand. But I just wanted to know how it felt like. Im too selfish. I understand." She repeats. "But can you please drive me to get food." She wrinkles her nose and it's the cutest thing. Her energy from when she kissed me and from the moment she took the words out from my mouth. Hasn't changed and Ill forever love Leigh for being Leigh.

As we walk to my car, without thinking, "Its scary liking someone. Really liking them." I say. But I want to put the words back into my thoughts because I just feel like an ass but Leigh replies.

"It is, but if it's scary; I think it's right, you know? You and Dakota make each other crazy. I think you two try to hide it from each other but I can tell."

"Is it a good thing we make each other crazy? I don't even know what to do." I say out loud as we go into my car.

"I think you guys care more than you show. Which isn't too good, but I think you need someone like Dakota and I think Dakota needs someone like you."

"I don't understand."

"There's a lot you don't know about her, and there's a lot she doesn't know about you. But once you know, you'll understand."

"What don't I know? And there isn't much to tell about me."

"Your hurting. I know you don't go home anymore and sleep at Harry's a lot. I know you miss her and I know your not okay. But Dakota doesn't know that. I think she'll be good for you, heal you. I wish I could do that but I know she'll love you more than anyone eles could . She'll love and you'll love her and you two will be okay."

Leigh is right and I don't dare question how she knows I crash at Harry's. Id go home but Dads too strict, Dads too sad, Dads too mean. Im a failure, and I can't live to his expectations. I have dreams and his life for me and the one i want for myself are two different things.

My brother went to the Army, just like Dad did and Dad swears he has more common sense then me. And that's okay when dad drinks and Alec is across the world, because were all running from the same things, running from one thing. Running away from memories. Running away from emptiness, running away from Mom being gone.

With that I hear Leigh scream and everything goes black.

Mom why did you leave me?