Pulse

12

When Leigh, J and I walk into the basement of an abandoned building, I already feel high and dizzy.

I can still see which is okay I guess, but my body is vibrating and my fingertips feel funny. The party is dark, only light source in this place is strobe lights.

This is so cool.

Images of parties from back home flash like lights in my head. I shake my head violently and almost fall over. "Hey are you okay?" Leigh says laughing. I nod and smile and we get lost in the crowd of partiers.

I run my hand through my hair and smile, I see J and Leigh close to eachother at the otherside of the room. They are so adorable, I whisper to myself.

A hand lays on my waist and I turn around to be greeted by Nialls face. "Hi." He says with sad eyes. Don't be sad! Why are you sad! Not because of me right? No! I scream to myself. I grab the back of his head and lean close to his body and bring his lips to mine.

He kisses me back, hungry and empty. Tongues swirl and my fingers lace in his hair. He doesn't stop he just keeps kissing me as if his looking for something. I'm sorry Niall I have nothing.

ZAYNS POV

I lean against the wall with Liam and we watch Niall and Dakota intensively kiss. That's not kissing....that's face eating.

They finally pull away and Niall turns her and she dances onto him. "Not gonna do something?" Liam says.

I want to be mad but I'm not, I actually feel more bad for Dakota then anger. She's always going to run away from me even though she knows what she wants. She'll keep screwing Niall over because unlike me he can't hurt her.

She's a closed book, I nod to myself.

"Nah. Let's get the snow for Louis and get out of here." I say and put my drink down. This time Liam looks at me, "Kiss her. And I'll go get the snow." He smiles and I nod.

Liam always says the right things even if it sounds stupid. I love him for that. I feel bad for him too, even though he says never feel pity for him. Because he hasn't found the perfect girl for him, his amazing and kind and caring but he won't look for that other half and I almost feel like as if I'm rubbing this in his face. But he doesn't seem to mind and if he does, he hides it well.

"Yeah? Okay." I walk towards Niall and Dakota and Niall sees me first with glossy eyes but I ignore him.

I go in front of Dakota and her hazel eyes go from my shoes to my eyes. Shes high and I can tell. I cup her chin and bring her lips to mine and kiss her gently. She's so cold...there must be fifty people around us close dancing to eachother, how could she be cold?

Niall backs away a little bit in hurt and surprise and I roll it off my shoulders. I light a cigarette and whisper bye to Dakotas ear. She holds her mouth as if she's been kissed by god himself and she doesn't believe it. She wants to say something but she doesn't and I walk away without saying anything either and Liam patting my back.

"Wait! Zayn!" I hear Dakota say and even though it almost came out as a whisper because of how far away she is and the mix of drunk/high kids in the room and music, I almost couldn't hear her. She runs towards me and doesn't stop till she's at my chest hugging my waist. "Take me wherever your going. Please" she says with pleading eyes and I nod. "Yeah, Of course." I look at Liam who's smiling, proud of himself.

I walk Dakota to Liam's car as Liam goes and gets snow for Louis. Dakota hasn't let of my waist until she slides into the backseat of his Range Rover and I join her.

"My head hurts," She explains.

"Here lay your head on my lap," She smiles and complys.

"Dakota," I say almost biting my lip but this has to be done and I have to say it. She looks up at me and her eyes almost glow and her lips are wet and pink just wanting to be kissed. But that can wait.

"I know your afraid of getting hurt and I know you don't want to show all of you to me because you think Ill use it against you. I can tell you right now, that I care about you more than I have ever did to anyone. You have to let me inside your world. We can take it as slow as you want, I'll protect you, I'll protect you from everything! I promise! I won't ever hurt you, even if you don't believe me at least let me show you. I can't keep not seeing you and you running away from me. Its not fair. I want to sleep with you and get lost into like you when get lost your drawing and hold your hand when your scared and love the fuck out of you because you deserve it. Let me please do that little for you, let me Dakota. Please."

She sits up with tears in her eyes and leans against my chest, "Okay." she says quitely. "No more running? All of you?" I say. She kisses me and I can feel her smile. "Yes."

She may mean it but the smart side of me know it's not that easy. I have to earn her trust, and that's going to take some time and I have to be gentle about it. She has to trust me. You could almost see, how much she loves even though she might not want you to see it; in things. I have never observed someone so intently before. But I guess I never knew how much you could love another person besides your family, either.

She lays into my arms and I hear her sniffle a bit into my chest. She's asleep. We stay like this until Liam drops us both at my house. If it's the last thing I do, tonight. She will stay.

{a/n: short chapter, sorrrrrry. i don't update as much as i should but if your reading this lil note thanks bc that means your reading this story and that means a lot :-) commmmment! ily :-) p.s im a horrible writer sigh sigh}