Grieving (solangelo au)

Am I? Are we?

Wills pov

"That's not a real answer, I asked why you like me-"
And that's when I did it. That's when I kissed Nico do angelo.
I couldn't stand it. He was so vulnerable and perfect and I could smell his breath and his hair and I know he was sick but I have a strong immune system.
So I kissed him. And dang it was great.
At first he did nothing and I got scared but he shifted his position and placed his hand on my neck pulling me closer to him.
I ran out of breath so I broke away and rested my forehead on his, my eyes closed.
He breathed deeply,

"I've been wanting to do that since I met you,"

"Same," I replied and then my eyes shot opened, I kissed Nico. And it was better than any kiss I've ever had. Was I- was I gay?
Ya I know after that it's crazy to question it but now that I think about it, I thought girls were pretty but I never wanted to you know- do them.
Nico opened his eyes and then saw my panic and sat up,

"What's wrong?" He asked

"Am I gay now?" I asked and he looked confused

"You can't just become gay, you either never accepted the fact or never knew you were until now, or you're not gay at all. Though that felt pretty gay to me," he said and smiled slightly

"Oh, well I instantly liked you when I saw you so, could I be bi?"

"I don't know, why are you asking me?"

"I don't know, I don't know anything," I said honestly looking into his beautiful eyes

"Well did you like that?" He gestured to us

"Yes,"

"Then you are most likely gay- or bi," he said and I nodded. Then I thought of something else.

"What about my parents?!?" I exclaimed and jumped up, running my fingers through my hair. My family is my life, if I was kicked out, I don't even know what I would do.

"You could live here. I have enough room," he suggested

"Ya but I don't know if I could live with myself. My family is my life,"

"Well you have to take a chance. You can't be gay and date guys all of your life and never tell your family. What if you want to get married?" He said and made a point

"When should I tell them?"

"I told Hazel after a year of her being here, so when I was 12, and she got me to tell our dad a week later so as soon as possible,"

"When did you know?" I asked hoping he wouldn't go all scary and guarded

"When I was 11," he said simply

"So, should I tell them now? Or should I tell Austin and Kayla first?" I asked

"Does anyone know other than me?"

"Lou Ellen and Cecil do," I rubbed my neck, "they're the ones that got me to take you to the movies that one day because I wouldn't do anything about it. And that's why they asked how your weekend went, they're evil and like to tease me,"

"Ok that's a start, not the teasing part, but telling someone. I think you should tell your parents and siblings when you get home, maybe your siblings first, in my experiences they can be more understanding, but you should tell them. It's easier that way,"

"Then I guess I should go," I said standing up and Nico pulled himself up using me as a balance.

"Are we a thing now?" He asked very close to my face

"If you want," I said and he smiled

"Oh I want," he went on his tip toes and kissed my forehead.
"Good luck,"