Remember Me?

Chapter 18

Troye

*ring ring ring*

"Alright class finish this page and it will be due tomorrow." The teacher says snapping me out of my memory.  Eveyone piles out and I just sit there.

"Troye you okay?" The teacher asks and I nod.

"Umm yeah...sure." I say standing up.

"I know all this going on is painful but he will remember. Just try your best with the homework." The teacher says and I nod. Then walk to my locker. All my friends alright around there lockers and mine. Zoe standing there at mine. I'm silent. 

"You look like you just saw a ghost." Zoe says and I swallow spit. 

"No just a memory."I say and she stops talking. 

"Of Connor helping me with math.  I miss being happy. I miss him happy. I miss us." I say and collapse in her arms crying on her shoulder  everyone  huddled me and hugs me. Zoe the one to always help me the most.

"I'm sorry Troye." Eveyone says. Thats all they really can do. Nothing will help Connor. Until he remembers.

"Troye let's get you to class." Zoe says with Alfie behind her. I sigh and finally make it to class. English always fun.

"I'll see you at lunch." Zoe says and I nod I walk in slowly. 

"Keep an eye on him Alf." Zoe says I sigh. He really should. I don't know what I'm going to do.

"Good morning class today we have an assignment I will tell you after I do attendance." The teacher says I sit in the back Alfie a 2 rows away.

"Troye?" The teacher asks and doesn't look up.

"Here." I say and he looks up looking shocked he nods and looks back down. After attendance he starts to continue.

"So like I was saying we are doing an assignment.  Everyone has to do it." The man says and I groan and so does everyone else.

"With one exception." The teacher says and I look up brefly.

"Troye doesn't have to do it." No one says a thing. I just keep my head down.

"It wouldn't be fair to him that he does this assignment  and doesn't know what we learned for the past weeks." The teacher says everyone just glances  my way and I just keep looking down. I just lay my head down trying  to not break down into tears. 

"The book we will be reading is Lord of the Flies." The teacher says my heart sinks in lower.

"It's Lord of the Flies." Connor says and smiles. 

"Mhhm." I say and close my eyes and cover my ears. Don't think of it. Not now. Don't please. I think. I lay my head further down.

"Troye are you okay?" The teacher asks feeling tears falling down my cheeks. Fight it.

"May I please be excused?" I ask quickly. Cracking my fingers. Don't cry. Don't look at anyone. Alfie. I need someone. I look over at Aflie everyone staring at me. He looks shocked. I mouth help and the teacher answers. 

"Yes if you need to." He says and I shoot up and run out. I hear Alfie  yell after me. I keep running down the hall. Tears falling down my face. Burning my skin. It feels like my tears are on fire.

"Troye!" Alfie screams as I slam my way into the bathroom. I hear footsteps behind me. Fight it!

"Troye." Alfie says touching my shoulder. I flinch.

"I can't do this anymore." I say breathing heavy.  Before I realize what I'm saying I slam into him and hug tightly.

"Troye you can." Alfie says and I shake my head.

"The memories are too much I'm fighting them." He says and I shake my head.

"I have to they hurt more if I remember what we once were." I say and close my eyes tears falling down my face. 

"I don't know what else to say." Alfie says I wipe my tears break the hug and slam out the door.

"Troye." Alfie says and I shake my head and walk back into class everyone staring at me I wait for a bell that seems like forever to come. I run out the class to lunch.  I eat nothing I don't deserve to eat. 

"Hey Troye how was class?" Zoe asks happy. I just sit down and put my head down. She puts her hand on my back and rubs up and down.

"Good I guess." I say keeping my head down.

"So what do you have to do in your class?" Joe asks trying to help.  I just shrug. 

"I don't know didn't pay attention." I say not mentioning my mental break down.

"Do you want some of my food?" Zoe asks  and I shake my head.

"Not hungry." I say and she sighs.

"Okay." She says and I look at my phone. Nothing. He still had my number I just want this one message saying "I remember you. I love you Tro." That's all I want. Lunch ends and finally the end of my classes I rush to my locker and grab my stuff and wall slowly past Connors locker. I don't care who looks I stop at his locker and open it up. Pictures of us. Pictures  of everyone. His sweater. His binder. I take his sweater and hold it with my life.  I rush onto the bus and sit down. I put my music in and close my eyes I feel a tap on my shoulder.

"Troye?" Sages voice comes to my ears.

"How was your day?" Sage asks and I just shrug.  Then I might as well tell her what I really feel.

"It was shit. It's just a fucking  bad place to remember him. I hate school because of that." I say and she sighs.

"It will get better." She says and I laugh a little.

"Its sick and tired of people saying that to me. It won't get better until he remembers me. And that doesn't seem like it's working so it wont." I say and she sighs and sits back with her friend. I wish Connor was beside me to tell me how everything is okay then I would believe it. I just wish everything was back to normal. I cry into the sweater quietly.