Remember Me?

Chapter 44

Connor

"No Troye!" I yell ignoring everything else. My boy is dying. He is dying on me. I run into the abulance just before they close the door.

"What happened to him? How old is he? What's his birthday?  What's his full name? What's his mom's name? What's his dad's name? Any siblings? How many? How you related?" They ask me questions right away as they try to get him to open his eyes.

"He fell. He is 17 almost 18. His birthday June 5. His full name Troye Sivan Mellet.  Mom's name Laurelle. Dad's name Shawn. Siblings yes. 3 names Steele, Tyde, and Sage. I'm related by his boyfriend." I answer them all as I hold his hand.

"How did he fall?" They ask me I can't tell them.  He will lose his mom. I know he wouldn't want that. I will ask him after he wakes up.

"He just slipped and he fell backwards. He fell on his head and then I called you guys." I say not wanting to ask anymore questions.

"Alright thank you." One of them says. I hate talking. I'm in tears worried.

"So he should be fine." One of the ladies say to me. My head on his hand.

"I.... the blood...." I whimper out.

"He only lost a little don't worry sweetie. So do you have parents who are coming to give you support any friends?" She asks and I nod.

"My family. My friends. His side of the families siblings." I whimper out.

"Alright that's good. Now so tell me what your into." She asks. I know what she is trying to do. Trying to calm me down. To get me to just breath.

"I'm into photography. But haven't really cared about it for a while taking care of him." I say and she raises her eyebrow.

"What do you mean? Taking care of him?" She asks gently.

"Well I guess I should have told you guys this before. But he is depressed really depressed. He doesn't like to talk about it. So if he wakes up don't ask him about it. He is very sensitive about things. He used to be anorexic but he eats now. Takes pills. They make him have different mood swings for the side effects." I say looking down at his face. His heart beat is slower now. I brush my hand along his cheek as I breath in.

"Do you think this was a suicide attempt?" The lady asks and I shake my head.

"No not at all! No! He hasn't thought about that for a while now. He didn't do this on purpose!" I whimper out louder.

"Okay it was just a question. Just breath Connor." She says and puts her arm on me.

"I can't lose him. Please god don't let him die on me. I won't be able to live with myself." I moan out trying to push the fact out of my head of him dying.

"You won't.  So we are going to be there any minute I need you to listen okay." She says and I nod.

"You will get out first and then get out of the way fast so we can rush him into emergency." The lady says and I nod.

"Okay." I say and she nods. I feel the ambulance stop and everyone get ready to get out. I just stop and jump out quickly. My parents right behind and I see Zoe they bring him out and run into the hospital. I run behind them fast. I see Troye move his hands. He wakes up.  I run beside them.

"Don't leave me Con." I hear him moan out.

"I'll be there when your all better I promise!" I yell as they take him threw the doors.

"I love you." I moan out and fall to the ground. I can't..... breath. I can't move.... my limbs hurt.... wonder how this felt to Troye when I was here.  He couldn't breath right. He couldn't move.  He was hurting.  Shit now I'm feeling the pain.

"Connor!" My mom yells out running towards me. I see everyone there. Zoe Alfie. Joe Caspar. Everyone. All my friends my family and Troyes family.

"What happened?" Zoe asks quickly. I can't answer.  It hurts to much.  I just want to be there with him. Please god.  Help me out. I see someone come in threw the doors not on purpose but Tyler and his mother. For a check up?

"What is going on?" Tyler asks and I just look up and keep quiet.

"Connor where Troye?" Tyler asks and I just bite my lip.

"What are you doing here?" I make out.

"You dont own this hospital by the way just a check up. I'm guessing Troye is hurt by your weakness and your eyes puffy I'm sure it's just a cold your over reacting about." Tyler angrily talks to me. I get up on my own forgetting the fact that my muscles hurt. 

"Fuck you and leave me alone!" I yell and he smiles.

"Oh Franta. Maybe he is finally realizing that he likes me!" Tyler says and laughs. I walk closer. 

"Don't you even talk about him. Think about him. Look at him! He doesn't like you and get over the fact of that.  Your pathetic. You know that! Now leave this part and don't ever fucking talk to me again." I say clenching my hands.  I would expect Troyes hands on mine. I just feel a hand and think it's Troye I look down and see nails painted. Sage.

"Leave Oakley!" I yell out and he laughs and leaves.  I fall start to go weak again this time Sage catches me. She helps me to a chair. Everyone asks me questions. I just stare into space. They ask me the same thing over and over again.  What happened to him? How did it happen? Is he going to be okay? While everyone is there for me. The only one I want here is Troye. I don't want anyone's help.  I just want Troye. I start to think bad things. 

"Troye." Sage says with tears.

"It's okay let it go." She whispers out to me.

"You dont have to he strong." She says low. I close my eyes and see Troye smiling. His lips perfect no scars. I then loud out a little whimper and fully break down into tears. A mess. A complete utter mess that is hurting more than ever.