Just a place where I can talk

*sighs*

If the world didn't judge

I would not have anxiety

If my demons in my head didn't shut up

I would not have scars

If I didn't fake a smile and forced laugh

They would be worried

If I was myself

The world would leave me

If I even told them what's going on they would tell me...

"It's ok"
         It's not

"You're just sad"
                I'M DEPRESSED

"You'll survive"
            I'm trying

And the worst one is...

"I'm sorry but I have to tell your family"

Yeah that will fucking help me. Forcing me to talk about why I cut won't make the feeling to GO AWAY! NOTHING HELPS! IF YOU CUT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A CUTTER! And the worst thing is that if you aren't cutting but you use to... you will miss the blade... you'll miss it...

It's 2:40 at the moment.

I can't fall asleep.

My demons are telling me that I am useless, nothing, and a waste a space.

Whenever I am at school I wish someone could ask me "How are you?" Then I would say something like "I'm fine." I just want someone to look me in the eyes and say "no your not." Is that a hard thing to ask. I just want to see if someone cares...