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Anxiety

My anxiety was so bad in my dance class. My teacher was yelled at my group saying "What count do you go on group 2?!" No one said anything because we were scared because she was yelling. I was scared. "GIRLS!" She yelled. I whispered "8" No one heard me. She definitely didn't hear me because she continued to yell.

"Group 2 in front of the class!"
We walked slowly forward. "What count do you go down?!" She yelled. I whispered again saying "7 and 8" but because my anxiety was building up I couldn't speak at all.

Someone said 3 because the were scared and she said "I am going to wait here till we get the right answer." She was pissed, but as I looked at the other girls wanting to know what their reaction is. They were frightened.

Someone finally said 7 and 8 then she said "It's like I was talking to a wall! Was I?!" My group shaked their heads while I almost burst into tears. I couldn't move for the dances because of how high my anxiety was.

I couldn't move.
I couldn't do anything.
I couldn't breathe.
I couldn't speak.
I almost cried.
But I hold back my tears afraid that I would look weak.
Afraid that she would tell me to stop crying.
Afraid that people in my class would judge me.
My anxiety.
I am going to cry when I get home.
I'll wait till it's night then I'll start.
Crying and crying and crying till I fall asleep.
I am a fucking mess