Just a place where I can talk

The thoughts are back

Fuck.
I am going to die.
I just got yelled at by my Mom.
It sounds like she is going to take my phone.
Also I was asleep because anxiety level was kind of up there today.
Now I want to cry.
But if I cry then I fall asleep.
So I have to stay awake in this nightmare.
And the worst thing is that I am having those thoughts again.
Like "no one cares about me."
Or "I am useless and I should just kill myself."
And "should k go back to my old habit?"
These thoughts are going to be the death of me.