Diana's diary(niallhoran fanfic)

I want to love her

Naills POV

It's been 6 days. 6 days, and she still hasn't woken up. 6 days of torture 6 days of tears. I have been staying with her family, I mean we need to stick together right? yes.

Every once in awhile she will move her hand or scream but no waking up.

The doctors say it was a cut. A cut so deep, that she passed out in a few minutes. probably 35 minutes or so. How would he know? if she doesn't wake up in 4 weeks they take her off. And she'll be dead. Ill be dead on the inside knowing I caused it.

Right now I'm at home. Sitting the guest room. I haven't been to her room to scared.

Every once in awhile, you hear her mum scream and cry, while cursing things.

I might be a man but ever night I cry. I have nightmares of her. Diana being dead I can't imagine it. Life with our her.

Yeah I bully her. i have a good reason. 'I wanted more friends. I only had Diana at the time.

I love her.

So much. She's my life and yet every day she's my punching bag. And now she is dying in a hospital bed. She'll never forgive me.

I want to love her. I want to cuddle with her. I want to have sex with her. I want to make her smile. I want to start over. When we first met. I remember like it was yesterday. How she made a nickname for me cause she couldn't Pronounce Niall.

The nickname was nialler.

We had a notebook we would write stories in together. About how we would go on adventures. She was my first kiss. I wasn't hers.

We were playing around and yeah. Get the point?

I got up and started walking to we room.

When I got there I was shocked. Everything is the same.