Man was he right.
I shouldn't fight so hard for people's love and affection.
So why do I keep fighting?
"I miss you"
-no you don't.
"I enjoyed spending time with you"
-I figured.
How do I respond to that? You obviously don't want to talk to me. You were once my best friend and my only one in what seemed like the whole world. You're family and I and you, were closer than ever. Because of that I am an aunt to my niece that's no where near blood but oh how beautiful she is. How amazing my two nephews are. How I love them.
What happened to all of that?
I wish I knew what made you stop caring.. Cause maybe I don't want you back in my life. But I just want you to care for once.
Ugh. Why pity myself. What's wrong with me?
You make me love myself and hate myself all at once! It makes me cold and makes me want to throw up but makes me warm and sleepy all at once too.
Whatever. I have someone that actually cares. So thanks anyway I guess.
Don't say I don't care.
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Shades of Blue
RandomJust outward thoughts. This is a new page so out with the old in with the new.. Questions for the author just ask and maybe I'll post something separate for that PSA: this is mostly used for letters to my significant other that I'm too afraid to say...
